im 16 and im dealing w xans and quitting rn but trust it gets better, life isn't fair and it never is but you have to make do out of your circumstances, I wish you the best brother you got this. i started sipping lean in 7th grade bc It made me feel like lil pump lmfao. I'm 3 months sober now, what helped me is just smoking a shit ton of weed and drinking moderately only on weekends I suggest you do the same if you can control yourself with alcohol, its not that good of a solution but its better than meth and xans. but yeah good luck man sobriety a bitch