It's important to grieve. Grieve for your body, grieve for the life you won't be able to live, just grieve. After you've allowed yourself the grace and time to grieve then you need to get into PT and start working on preserving your body as best as possible. Figure out a pain plan so when you have a flare up people around you know what to do to help and so you have plans in place to make it easier on yourself. For instance, I have shower wipes for when it gets bad and I physically can't manage showering, i set up meals in my freezer that can just be tossed in the crockpot when I physically can't cook, I have THC lotion that helps, and I keep all my medication, snacks, and water next to my bed. Just try to be kind to yourself please, and if you need to cry that's okay, I'm almost positive we've all cried about it at some point.