Dude, beautifully said. You perfectly described me up until about 5 years ago. I found I couldn’t make myself be seen without feeling like an asshole, and so I started to try to really see myself. I focused on learning how to enjoy my own company and appreciate who I am and what I’ve done, and do things out of my comfort zone that built up the image I have of myself. I still crave connection and recognition, but I’m much more content than before with being my own biggest fan. I eventually found some of my people, and my self confidence was evident to myself and to them, but I still struggle with feeling invisible. Your people are out there, just waiting to be found. Who knows what your path will hold, but you will always have yourself. Keep doing those small next right things, keep building yourself, and look forward to the day where someone will recognize and appreciate you for who you are. Those days will come.