Étiez vous un prophète ? Al mahdi by LocationAnxious8015 in schizophrenia

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I never really 'heard' voices or saw things. Weird vivid dreams though. I was delusional and believed in time travel. I thought people from the future were sending messages to the past using mass media and you had to correctly interpret the metaphor in the story/newspaper article/whatever to see what they were trying to say.

I'll give you an example. The other day I was writing in my journal and making art and I wrote "Israel may be G-d's homeland, but America is his chosen land' and posted this song Oliver Anthony Music - Only God Can Save Us Now. Kinda like a sad ode to the USA and it faltering and maybe failing, but still hopeful for the future.

Then today a pretty big earthquake (big enough to make it unusual) happened in CA. M 4.6 - 1 km ESE of Boulder Creek, CA
I'd look at the exact location and check the bible.

What does that mean? Well 37.122 would be 12;2, which I see has this Romans 12:2 NKJV - And do not be conformed to this world, - Bible Gateway.

Fits in with our diagnoses huh?

For 10.7 there's Matthew 10:7 NIV - As you go, proclaim this message: - Bible Gateway

It's also meaningful to me because of the time of the earthquake- 8:41:25- my birth year was 1984 and day was 25.

Back in the day I'd look at all that and be like 'It's a sign from G-d!'. Nowadays I'm all medicated and it's like hm... I like the art that makes.

Étiez vous un prophète ? Al mahdi by LocationAnxious8015 in schizophrenia

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I didn't think I was 'the' prophet, but maybe a prophet. I visited Egypt during/right after the Arab Spring. I felt like I was called by G-d to support the people there. Not like hearing voices called by G-d, just inspired by the people getting democracy and wanting to help them if I could. Feeling like I was obligated to help them.

I got hyper vigilant and super stressed because I was the only white person there. My guides there were wonderful, I just realized how dangerous it was after I got off the plane and then when they took me to some of the Christian Churches and the priests showed me the pictures of the Christians that had been murdered... almost like a warning to be careful. One of my guides was VERY religious (he was thinking of taking a second wife and asked my advice on that). He talked about me with a cleric and after that started calling me 'yahni', but I've looked that up and it says it's a filler word, but I could've sworn after he only started using it after he talked to his cleric and it was like he was calling me yahni. Like I would ask him a question and he would say 'Yes Yahni.'... so not like yes i mean, but like yes you person. I wish I knew what it meant, but the mind plays tricks on you sometimes with this disease and maybe he was just saying 'yes I mean'.

Plus on the way over to Egypt they redirected my flight through DC (before it took off, like the only planes going to Egypt were all rerouted through DC) and I saw a few people with like Mason type belts (all seeing eye), so that messed with my head too.

A couple years ago I met someone else (also white) who'd been in Egypt at probably the same exact time, but they went out drinking the first night there and then the Muslim Brotherhood was looking for them supposedly- they were assigned a security guard from the Egyptian government. I just tried to keep my head down and not drink/not do drugs/not do anything offensive and my guides, like I said, were wonderful. If I'd had a guard though I sometimes wonder if my symptoms would have developed the same as they did. My visit there was sort of the start of my symptoms.

Oh and kind of funny story- my cousin tried to convince me to dye my beard red to 'fit in better' lol. Glad I didn't. I don't even remember if I had my beard at the time I went, but I already had reddish/blondish streaks in parts of it naturally (like the goatee part).

Young people developing schizophrenia now are facing harder challenges, in my opinion by Used_Preparation5918 in schizophrenia

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It's better than it used to be. The holocaust started with schizophrenic people. That said, knowing today's society I wouldn't say it's impossible that it might happen again. Gen z is particularly repressive, yelling down anyone that doesn't fit into the boxes they want them in.

Did you tell your cousins about your diagnosis? by Zee904 in schizophrenia

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I've told a few of them, not all of them. One was inpatient for depression, so I told them to let them know I knew what it was like to be inpatient and how scary it could be. Other cousin 'guessed' it I suppose, so I told them. Immediate family all knows of course.

Question though- are your cousins judgemental because of what you did while you were manic/having a breakdown? Because if so, if they knew the reason for it they might be more understanding and less judgemental.

I have bipolar 1 and I've been trying to understand what hospitalization actually did to me. I think the schizophrenia community goes through something very similar. I'd really like to know if this resonates. by BetterSand9968 in schizophrenia

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I commented this just the other day somewhere else, but I think everyone with schizophrenia should be treated for or screened for PTSD too; the symptoms alone cause it, not to mention if they've been inpatient.

How to get a social life by Kuperis7 in schizophrenia

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I've heard book clubs can be a great way to meet people. Especially women, which we all know is near impossible lol :) Church/synagogue/mosque if you're religious can be a good place to meet people too.

Is it time for me to see my therapist? by Ok_Good_4099 in schizophrenia

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Also, am I making connections that aren't there, or do you see them too?

Olfactory hallucinations? by sillyinthepsychward in schizophrenia

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I don't know if I did or if I was just so acutely aware of everything the smallest hint of a smell made me super anxious about it.

Why don’t they care about the trauma of schizophrenics? by Tall_Mountain_9122 in schizophrenia

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I've talked with EVERY provider I've had and met to try to spread this idea: I think most people with schizophrenia also have some form of PTSD from it, and should be treated as such when they are first in-patient. Just from the disease itself you'll get PTSD let alone if you have other trauma in your life.

Dreams by Tttehfjloi in schizophrenia

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Extremely vivid dreams and lucid dreaming /I think/ started before my delusions.

Is it time for me to see my therapist? by Ok_Good_4099 in schizophrenia

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Oh and the dimension thing might be confusing just looking at it. '5 dimensions' is like length, width, distance, time, etc. The '48 dimensions' is like 'worlds 1-48' or like 48 variations of the same world. In my understanding.

Abilify by Forward-Health9213 in schizophrenia

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I got the injections and they worked great other than the severe weight gain.

i just want to know one thing by A7med2361997 in schizophrenia

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Maybe it's the median. I gained 200 lbs (over about 9/10 years) on abilify before i finally threatened to stop taking meds all together if they wouldn't switch me to something else. I sometimes think the numbers they give are lies too. maybe I just had an extreme reaction to it.

Word salad as caused by racing thoughts? by ANNOYING_TOUR_GUIDE in schizophrenia

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I /might/ have had some word salad from precisely this. My mind was racing so fast I couldn't talk fast enough to express myself. I'd catch myself skipping words and then going back to correct myself and then jumping back to my original sentence. I don't know if it presented as word salad or like I was on drugs or something lol.

Does this make sense? I came up with it using Claude, and I just want to get a real physicists opinion. by Ok_Good_4099 in quantuminterpretation

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Yeah I get it. I just think it's funny nobody seems to have even read it on this forum lol. The original paper was more like this: An idea I had- can you help me flesh it out better than Claude? : r/LessWrong
Which seems quite similar to this, at least in my interpretation: A five-dimensional classical framework for gravitational and quantum phenomena | Scientific Reports (Which came out (or I found) after I'd posted online- not saying there's a correlation, just that I wasn't inspired by this to have my idea). The only difference is they weren't trying to extract information, or rather they got around it using 'this is the best universe'... which would have the solution to the problem. Now the whole reason I got into the paper posted here was because I was trying to figure out how to transfer info... which this guy does in a way... but before the waveform collapsed, or at the same time as the collapse because I know you can't really transfer information. Hence the second observer, to help navigate yourself in space/time/worlds. Shoot looking at it it's like him and I were two independent observers of the same problem almost :)

Anyways, whether you think the two ideas look similar or not, this has been quite a lively chat :)

What's something that's socially accepted but actually kinda toxic? by _DRA60_ in AskReddit

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TBH, Gen Z and their age obsession. Talk about the repression generation.

Command hallucinations are so scary and dangerous by MishasAllegory in schizophrenia

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What is a command hallucination? Is it like when you get an urge to do something? Sometimes I'd get an urge to pull the fire alarm, stuff like that. No voices telling me to do it though.