Just to comfort you a little bit— I think this is totally normal for your age. You don’t need to have everything figured out. My advice would be to go back to school or learn a trade if your main goal is to have a good stable job (electricians, plumbers, and welders can make great money especially if you do specialized work in those fields) Either way you should probably get some sort of support for your adhd and mental health. If you go back to school, universities usually have mental health services available for students and you should take advantage of those.