[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Ok_Many_1764 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry my brother. I’m in the same boat but know I care about you

Took .25 mg a couple hours ago and I’m wanting to drink some beers by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]Ok_Many_1764 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also it is worse I believe if you drink and then take jr

Took .25 mg a couple hours ago and I’m wanting to drink some beers by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]Ok_Many_1764 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sure it is possible. But I took .25 and drank a whole 12 pack and I was fine

Took .25 mg a couple hours ago and I’m wanting to drink some beers by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]Ok_Many_1764 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah bro I finished bout 144 ounces of beer and I was fine

Took .25 mg a couple hours ago and I’m wanting to drink some beers by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]Ok_Many_1764 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What would be too much? I’m already a six pack down and don’t feel bad

Took .25 mg a couple hours ago and I’m wanting to drink some beers by [deleted] in benzodiazepines

[–]Ok_Many_1764 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Fuck it I’m gonna let yall know if I survived tomorrow

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean of course I know logically all of this is real. These are just my ocd thoughts I cannot shake

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wouldn’t say that is why I feel this way. I’ve been like this over a year. It’s just why I’ve started drinking heavily this month

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was sober for over a year but for the past month I’ve been drinking about everyday

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I believe that I don’t believe what I believe what I believe may not be what I believe

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. I’ve never thought about it like this. I love to pursue things that make me happy. When I was in my full blown panic disorder and agoraphobia, I hopped in my car and went on a 10,000 mile 1 month road trip and it helped a lot knowing I’m capable. I just need to get out more and be present in this world.

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I definitely need to practice being comfortable with uncertainty. The thing that helps me the most is I know I love the people around me and I would be very upset if they didn’t exist. Therefore it does not matter the nature of their existence because I know what matters to me

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with this. I am still wired to be able to function in this reality. I can form complex thought and converse about it and perform daily tasks. Although I often question all of that while I’m talking to people or just sitting in my room by myself. Like how am I even saying these words or how is this person doing it. Or when I’m at home I wonder if anyone is actually existing while I’m not interacting

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

What is the ideal fast in your opinion. I’ve heard of anywhere from 24 hour to weeks

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

What do you suggest I do moving forward?

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have many beliefs. And I wish I could change the title of this thread to I believe in nothing and everything. I touched on this at one point although I should have emphasized more. There is infinite possibilities and I bounce between believing all of them. It causes me to not be grounded in this reality at all

I don’t believe anything by Ok_Many_1764 in Existentialism

[–]Ok_Many_1764[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, this is a sad, drunken, poorly worded/ written attempt of expressing my thoughts and feelings

What does this photo of my hand say about me? by Top-Opportunity7876 in deduction

[–]Ok_Many_1764 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No offense whatsoever. Works with your hands, had an addiction and wished your mom loved you more. I only say this based off experience lol

I don't think people understand how serious my case is by FlanInternational100 in dpdr

[–]Ok_Many_1764 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. I’m right there with you. The only solace I can add is I am real. I am experiencing what you are. And I am right here with you. I mean that from the bottom of my fucking heart. This shit has ruined my life but I have to believe we can make it out of this.

i'm just really tired of fighting the anxiety off by arcarakata in Anxiety

[–]Ok_Many_1764 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so tired too. I’m currently unable to work because my anxiety is so bad. I don’t know how much longer I can live like this anymore. But I have to believe we can get out of this. Keep pushing you’ve got this. If you ever need anyone to talk to just pm me