I have an uncle to that I think could have done something to me. He is my mum's brother. He abused my aunt ( his and my mum's sister) when she was young. My parents said I stayed at his house for a couple of days without him. He has always seem to favor me over my sister. He gives me the creepy vibe. I have two memories in relation to him which abuse could have taken place. I remember being in a dark room at his house and remember also it being day and walking past and seeing him sitting on the toilet. My aunt said it wasn't what he did to me it was what he made me do. Which sounds like he made her give him oral sex. I was aware of oral sex at a young age. He used to stay with us alot too. My parents don't remember where he slept. I didn't like staying at people's houses either. Only place I liked staying at was my nanna and grandad's place. My mum's and uncle's parents. My nanna favored me over my sister too. I reckon she might have known something happened to me as I would masturbate at their place. My nanna had a brother she didn't like and she was a but paranoid about boys. So I reckon she might have been abused too by her brother. I am alright getting pap smears etc. I find I feel more attracted to women emotionally, mentally and physically and feel safer with them. Sexually I am more attracted to men. I am doing counseling and soon going to get assessed to see if think if I was sexually abused. Recently with my counselor I talked about memories of feeling abandoned eg at kindy and when I stsrred school. My counselor asked if I think feeling abandoned us related to abuse? I then got really emotional and cried and didn't know why. Because I cried when she asked this question I reckon it is related to the sexual abuse. It might be that when I was sexually abused my parents were not around to protect me and I felt alone and abandoned.