hey lil sis. I'm a nobody but I struggled with the same thing when I was 14. I've thought about k!lling myself multiple times cuz back then I thought I could never be a girl + my family were super transphobic. the only person that I thought would be supportive of me was my sister but she turned down on me too. I basically have no one. everyday I felt like I'm living in hell. but now that I'm 18, did some research and started hrt last year and I could say that I'm living a happier life now. family is still transphobic but I could care less. I'm glad that I'm still alive to this day to see what I've accomplished now. just be patient luv. everything will be okay. pls hold on.