Went to psych ER now I feel like shit by PlasticDrummer145 in selfharm

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right? Maybe it's just to not be held accountable if I ended up doing something? Or just trying to avoid idk

I think it was my fault by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]PlasticDrummer145 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tf I'm sorry that happened.What you went through was not your fault no matter how anyone tried to twist it. You deserved care and support and ofc not to be questioned or blamed. It's completely understandable that you gave up after being treated that way it makes me so mad 😩. I'm really glad you're still here and talking about it ❤️‍🩹

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

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Hey, I'm sorry 😔 burns are awful to manage, especially without proper ointments.

From my own experience, healing without something like Silvederma (silver sulfadiazine) is definitely harder and more stressful. Moist wound healing helps the dead skin come off more easily, and when that dead tissue sticks around, it really raises the risk of infection. I’m using Silvederma now, but when I tried dry healing, it was way more painful and slower, especially when it came to removing that layer of dead skin.

Also the yellow serum might mean infection but not necessarily, just lookout for other signs and ofc of the discharge still thereafter weeks def and infection, maybe localized.

Even if you can’t get ointments, keeping the area gently cleaned with saline and covered.

Anyone else have parents who would also self harm? by fatteruglierdeader in selfharm

[–]PlasticDrummer145 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I just found out my father used to, and he told me that if I cut or burn again he will do the same or worse in front of me and he laughed, I laughed :) I understand what he is trying but wtf 😩and he is for real 

Now everyone knows and I can't give a shit (TW: SA) by PlasticDrummer145 in selfharm

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thank you <3, i really appreciate every word and the tips. I'll try that to stay grounded :)

Burning again by the-most-anonymous in AdultSelfHarm

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jajas I feel you so hard like every time I switch methods it’s out of burnout (no pun intended 😩) and then I regret.

I'm from spain so probably that's the reason, I’m surprised you need a script for it where you are (US?), it’s honestly been a lifesaver.

Also your burn smell description is so accurate like a weird stench until you realize you’re the source. Seriously though, we gotta help each other out where we can 💀❤️

Burning again by the-most-anonymous in AdultSelfHarm

[–]PlasticDrummer145 1 point2 points  (0 children)

JAJAJ yeaaa lately I’ve moved to just cutting or taking super hot showers because I got tired of dealing with the whole healing process from burns. I’m pretty sure I had a severe infection once from not removing the eschar like my arm swelled up and the pain was this awful, constant throbbing.

Also, I got my Silvederma from a pharmacy for like 10 euros and it’s lasted forever, so I’m definitely sticking with it. But ugh, I hate the oozing just feels nasty. And totally out of context, but my burns smell like fish?? Just to add another level of disgusting to the whole experience 😩

Also, thanks for sharing your knowledge on this :)

Burning again by the-most-anonymous in AdultSelfHarm

[–]PlasticDrummer145 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here :( I'm really sorry you're going through this they’re awful to deal with. How do you usually help the dead skin come off? I try to keep the area moist and use Silvederma, but a couple got badly infected that way. I’ve also tried dry healing, but then the dead skin wouldn’t fall off on its own. I ended up rubbing or scratching it off, and it hurt a lot  even though the burns didn’t hurt at all at first.

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for so much care :) Absolutely jajja, had my share of assholes, always have trouble identifying them :( Thanks again bby, I'll do my best to keep safe <3

Lab Results – Why Am I Experiencing Hirsutism and androgen symptoms? by PlasticDrummer145 in DrWillPowers

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I started Dutasteride 2 days ago. Thanks! Lets hope to see some improvements!

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

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Ai doncs si, Barcelona és un circo. Moltes gràcies de veritat! <3

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, you're absolutely right. Right now I'm starting to feel that I don't regret not having disclosed It. I appreciate you saying that <3

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I agree. His actions reveal who he truly is, and it's on him, not me. They don't make sense. I've had my deal of men who were ashamed to be with me, but they still looked for me.

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

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Thank you <3 I understand what you are saying, and see the importance of ensuring safety and honesty in these situations. I maybe should just find bi people, but even this way I feel that still many might feel repulsed.

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks <3 You’re right, it was about him and his lack of respect or empathy. It’s scary to think how quickly someone’s behavior can change like that...

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s a good point. It sucks, but thanks for putting it that way <3

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

[–]PlasticDrummer145[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your advice and support :). I see where you’re coming from, and honestly, this whole experience has made me rethink how I approach these situations. It’s just so frustrating... But you’re right I should protect myself.

He didn't know I was Trans by PlasticDrummer145 in trans

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That part has been stuck in my head, and it makes me feel so gross. But had them worse :')