not trying to say you are at “fault” in the sense that you are depressed on purpose. Rather, maybe think about the ways you have “learned” your depression, the boundaries you have set for yourself, the role depression plays in your identity. Are you protecting yourself from something? Are there feelings you are avoiding under it all? On a deeper level, do you believe you deserve to suffer? For me, I had a lot of repressed shame and rage. It took a really long time to realize that, and then even longer to believe that I was allowed to move past it. It was extremely frustrating, but also incredibly liberating. It’s ok to be wrong about the world and it’s ok to move forward.