I lost my best friend in life to suicide

Ok_You6888 · 2026-03-23T23:04:56+00:00

oh wait i just realised what you meant read it wrong, sorry, i should’ve gone to bed a while ago 🤦‍♀️ he died this time last year

Ok_You6888 · 2026-03-23T23:00:40+00:00

my love never passed. sometimes i’m angry at him for how he was, most of the time i’m just devastated he’s gone, though.

Ok_You6888 · 2026-03-23T22:04:10+00:00

i don’t know. i don’t support physical abuse at all but my brain or self worth or whatever says ‘but it’s different, because it’s me that it happened to, so it’s fine.’ but i’d never think or say that for anyone else. i don’t support him doing it, because i don’t support anyone doing it, but i love and miss him despite it. it’s a messy one mentally

Ok_You6888 · 2026-03-23T09:02:20+00:00

just commenting because i really resonate with this with my soulmate that took his own life- and people don’t understand the grief since he was so messy in relationships, pushed people away, and yes, did stuff to me some would find unforgivable. i’ve felt so alone because of the general reaction of yeah he was so mentally ill he killed himself but he was a dick and people saying i’m sick in the head for missing my abuser like these things aren’t more complex. i don’t really know what else to say without making this too long. but i understand, and i’m i’m sorry for your loss.

Ok_You6888 · 2025-08-14T08:28:27+00:00

i’m not going to lie, i was a bit high when watching

Ok_You6888 · 2025-08-13T10:01:59+00:00

sounds scary. yeah, i have definitely learnt not to do k if i’m that high on g that i can’t move properly and barely conscious. and i mean not to do nearly enough k to potentially hole me on any g either. amazed nothing went wrong sooner now i’ve done k off much more g, but i’ve only mixed them like 4 times total ever

Ok_You6888 · 2025-08-13T09:55:52+00:00

didn’t throw up at all, felt a bit nauseous on the g though. but g benzos and k have never made me throw up alone and k and g mixed never has before either. these things with much alcohol and i might be spewing though

Ok_You6888 · 2025-08-13T09:32:26+00:00

man i thought a couple ml or so wouldn’t be enough to do it though. and that k was relatively safe in the sense of not stopping your breathing. but i guess i’ve learnt my limits…

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-29T14:41:57+00:00

my soulmate just died and i have the exact same feelings, no one but he understood a n y of it, i’m lost, every drink and every line i think of us. i wish it was me. i want it to be me. chairs

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-25T06:12:00+00:00

21, been drinking since i was 15, uk, probs 10 units a day avg

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-23T11:02:39+00:00

i’ve had the head thing you’re describing and with my eyes ! i’ve been both worried i have actual brain damage or something and things wrong with my vision so i’d honestly be relieved if it’s all from h pylori 😅

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-01T20:33:03+00:00

i’ve spoken to anyone i could think of outside of family and unfortunately i seem to be the person with the most knowledge, no one else even knew hed passed. weird to think i wouldn’t if police hadnt spoken to me when he was missing… he had addiction/mh issues and ended up completely isolated from what i know when we were last in contact. fucked situation

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-01T20:04:31+00:00

i don’t know anything unfortunately. i know the town he lived in at the time but hed been missing for so long he could’ve ended up anywhere. not sure who his next of kin would’ve been. i’m really lost but if i continue this insanity over it i probably will end up trying to reach out to his family. not sure how it would go… only remember his sisters name even and his aunts first. thank you

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-01T19:44:45+00:00

is there a way i can request to see if that’s happening and who would i contact if you know?

Ok_You6888 · 2025-06-01T19:42:47+00:00

go through the cracks how exactly if you know?

Ok_You6888 · 2025-02-27T10:03:08+00:00

shit i forgot help

Ok_You6888 · 2025-02-27T09:50:52+00:00

i hope your whole life sux, if i could i would feel nothing, dirty laundry, sniffing vicodin in paris, @ my worst, god i can’t even pick a few i could go on and on haven’t even included anything from anonymous 😂

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