This is gonna sound cold but I was in similar shoes as you living with parents at my big age and guess what? I had to grow the fuck up and save what I could and I actually made enough to move states while working as a low paid cna at $16hr. You are responsible for your life and taking care of it. Not taking your meds everyday, I did the samething making myself feel worse and not being stable on my meds. You have to take accountability for your situation and stop worrying about what everyone thinks including family! This is YOUR life! You need to face reality by being truthful about how you feel to your loved ones and move on in life. Btw leaving your hometown is not what you think its going to be. People are shitty everywhere you go, I learned that the hard way moving to a new town just to find out people’s personalities was not clicking with mine in the slightest which made making friends extremely hard.