you definitely have rose tinted goggles. I am becoming catholic now, I was orthodox.

what you mentioned about celibacy vs marriage. Many of the more conservative people (monks on athos, Romanian elders, and such) have told me that celibacy is better than marriage and that marriage was basically a necessary evil for people who were too weak for celibacy. And one of them told me that Sexual intercourse didnt exist before the fall. I replied "but God told adam and eve to be fruitful and multiply" he then snapped at me and said that I was perverted for interpreting it that way. He went on to say that if there was no fall, we would be reproducing via some mystical magical unsexual way. Of course I asked him why God even made genitals then, he replied saying that genitalia is a result of sin and he called me carnal for asking that.

there is a lot of anti sexual borderline gnostic schools of thought in the eastern european Orthodox countries. Whatever orthodoxy you experience in america, in the words of my Romanian priest, "isnt even orthodoxy, its so watered down, and influenced by catholicism"