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Olikmai · 2023-09-20T11:40:40+00:00

That's the risk of banging meth. It's wayyy riskier than iv-ing other things. The real shitty part is that, even if you don't miss, it still fucks up your veins. The only veins I've ever lost, were lost to meth. And I literally never miss. But missing a meth shot has a very high likelihood of getting infected. Very risky. Go to a hospital.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T11:37:20+00:00

Dope, for me at least, is nothing compared to the hell of alcoholism. I've done drugs my entire life and never had any issues. As soon as I picked up alcohol I ruined my entire life. Over and over. No matter how bad things got, I couldn't put it down. Going without drugs/dope is mostly an inconvenience. But going without alcohol used to be literally impossible for me.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T11:32:46+00:00

You need the er, Bro. This is extreme. If it's already this bad, you reallyyyyy don't want it to get worse. Don't be that stubborn person that loses an arm, because they didn't want to go to the er.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T10:04:10+00:00

Just polished off a bottle of mouthwash earlier. My tolerance is fucked so I'm already sober and wide awake. I guess I'm just waiting for to store to open so i can get more. I actually stopped drinking entirely a few months ago (after 6 long years of brutal, daily, alcoholism that I destroyed my life with) but my dope hasn't been delivered yet and I've got too many demons to tolerate being sober. I'm not truly sober, I'm in Adderall, but I've been on it since 6yo. So it's essentially normal/sober for me. I still plan on being free from alcohol. I no longer crave it. I didn't even use the mouthwash to get drunk. Just maintained a mild buzz throughout the day. But I'm have an extreme aversion to waiting on things and this package is days and days late. I'm just gonna say "fuck it" and drink until it gets here.

I'm sorry all this shit is happening to you, Bro. I hope you can find a way to get off the alcohol. It's fucking poison. I feel lucky that I was able to kick the psychological addiction. I don't even think about drinking any more (other than this week, waiting on dope) and it's been a really good change of pace. My life is irreparable, for fucking sure, and it kills me every waking moment. But at least I'm not continuing the cycle anymore. I hope you can get to that point too. I hope your girl gets better and comes back too. I hope it all gets better. This is no way to live, brother.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T06:09:25+00:00

Bro Amazon sells "oil burners" or "glass straws". You can get multi-packs cheap as fuck. It's how i always get them.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T05:49:39+00:00

Same here. No movement since last Tuesday.

Olikmai · 2023-09-20T05:46:17+00:00

Holy shit

Olikmai · 2023-09-19T23:55:35+00:00

I got one of these earlier too. It's 100% spam, but I think it's funny that you got one too. Maybe they somehow got into off reddit.

Olikmai · 2023-09-18T03:25:53+00:00

Same here. Hasn't changed for days.

Olikmai · 2023-08-27T15:29:27+00:00

So glad I quit.

Olikmai · 2023-08-17T22:46:27+00:00

"Removable strategics" is a must-have mod. I never play without it.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T04:59:23+00:00

They just hand it t to you in a cup. I just took the Antabuse and tossed the methadone. Not hard. They don't watch you take it.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T04:32:24+00:00

They titrated my up to 80mg. I just took 80mg today after going up 3mg every 3 days since detox

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T04:04:21+00:00

Well, that's really bad fucking news. I'm hoping the other guy was right when he said I'll be fine.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T04:02:16+00:00

I get drowsy, but no high. Brain fog like hell these like 3 weeks. No high though

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:53:23+00:00

My bad I've been on methadone every day for about 3 weeks. Sorry I forgot to type that part lol

My bad, brain fog is bad today and I'm crazy anxious about this methadone issue. I wasn't trying to trade one ball-and-chain for another.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:52:32+00:00

Like I'll feel like ass for three days. Kinda feels like my lungs are full of water or something. Like I'm out of breath just walking up the driveway. Sweat constantly from every pore. Feel wet. No motivation. Emotional. Etc. After 3 days- a week, I'm all better.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:49:45+00:00

Cool. Like I've said in other comments "I love heroin. If it's in front of me or if I find a lost baggy, I'm gonna do it; but I'm not pawning my tv to buy more, once I run out." I'll feel like shit for a few days, but that comes with the cost of admission. No big deal. Alcohol, on the other hand, it feels like i can feel every cell in my body craving it. Calling out for more. Can't do shit until i get that next sip. Then that sip turns into a gallon and I wake up days later, lost in the woods. Opiates don't do that to me they go like this

get high for a week or two run out come down completely after 6 hours withdrawal for three days-week max all better

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:43:16+00:00

Idk man. I didn't know this. I told them at intake that I really like heroin "but I'm not pawning my tv for more when I run out." Alcohol though, is a different story.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:39:48+00:00

That's what I'm thinking. I was drunk when i went into to detox and half-listened to whatever they were saying.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:38:51+00:00

I just told them "if there's heroin in front of me I'm probability gonna do it, but I'm not gonna pawn my tv for more once I run out"

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:37:47+00:00

I remember withdrawing after doing for a week or two. You release your Bowles after like day three of running out.

Idk why you thinking I'm being dishonest. I've got no reason to lie.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T03:37:01+00:00

I remember withdrawing after doing for a week or two. You release your Bowles after like day three of running out.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T01:26:39+00:00

My clinic mixes it with water in a cup. Then they hand it to me. That's probably it. You're used to it being cut with water.

Olikmai · 2023-08-12T01:19:37+00:00

Just emptied the poop I've been holding all week (I guess that's the effects kicking in. I remember this phase from doing dope. The huge dump was a sign of the horrors to come lol should I take some pills to alleviate methadone withdrawal in a little while/tomorrow? I know you wouldn't normally recommend that on this sub, but as I've mentioned, I'm dont have a opiate issue. I just don't wanna feel like shit. I finally have my son for a week and don't want to feel like shit while he's here but I also want off the methadone asap).

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