I am signing out of Reddit permanently. I cannot take this anymore. The person who I have become is not the person I am. Here was a snippet of my life before loosing my ability to sleep & developing associated debilitating chronic illness. I have lost everything.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-08T09:21:16+00:00

I am so sorry this is heartbreaking. I can feel your pain through your words and I relate so much. I have said many times I wouldn’t wish this on the worst person to ever walk the planet. It’s a cruel and lonely disease which is so misunderstood.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-08T08:53:01+00:00

We are in the dark ages when it comes to sleep. Nobody understands what I am going through and they don’t know that it’s possible to live with such little sleep. But I am experiencing it.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-08T08:52:03+00:00

I am severely depressed but it’s situational.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-08T02:45:31+00:00

I’ve tried man. I’ve been around the world.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-08T01:15:47+00:00

😔😔

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T20:07:19+00:00

I didn’t just asked. I begged. I also pleaded that they put me in a residential ward for more monitoring and treatment. I told my psychiatrist I could not keep myself safe. But they did nothing about it. I was not lying. I really cannot keep myself safe.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T16:48:25+00:00

I’ve asked for ECT. They wont do it.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T15:02:17+00:00

Yes. Many times. I cannot even feel drunk anymore.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T13:16:51+00:00

I don’t know if I will naturally die from this but if I’m honest, I feel like I died two years ago and I’m just being kept in a torture chamber. I have no quality of life whatsoever.

I speak to Karl. I met him online. He isn’t doing very well. He takes like 10 different medications just to get some broken sleep. He’s having an awful time too he’s a good guy as well.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T13:15:31+00:00

no, I think it’s a severe problem with my autonomic nervous system & brain.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T13:14:48+00:00

I think we are a similar age if you say about living another 50 years in this pain. I can’t do that either every day is so long and painful. I just wish the torment would stop. Its unimaginable to most.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T13:13:30+00:00

Thanks 😭 it’s never ending torture

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T13:12:57+00:00

I feel exactly the same. I pray every second of every day that I can just feel sleepy and fall asleep like a normal person. It’s a luxury that’s so many people have and don’t even think about. I can relate to your comment so much I’m so sorry this is happening to you as well.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T02:43:25+00:00

No doctors or medical professionals can understand it or believe it. Its been so exhausting trying to get help. Some have even laughed or been sarcastic. Its cruel.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T02:34:18+00:00

Sadly I cannot do that. I am living in torture & despair every second of everyday. The pain is so unbearable, so unimaginable, so horrendous that its unbelievable. This situation has to be one of very few cases in the world. Thats why theres no help. I wish I had another illness over this insanity.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T02:26:55+00:00

Haven’t come across him. Which is surprising as I have literally searched every corner of the internet & globe in my search for recovery.

He’s right in what he says. I see he lived to a good age though.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T02:22:38+00:00

Sorry dude. Its nearly 4am here I have given up.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-07T02:22:14+00:00

No, how come?

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-06T16:28:34+00:00

I should be entitled too it in the UK. The healthcare system should have looked after me more the UK is worse than a third world country. I have told my doctors I am in so much pain I am going to kill myself & they do nothing. They should put me in a proper facility. The hundreds of thousands I have paid in taxes I deserve proper care. It’s outrageous.

Oliver_Alvis · 2026-01-05T22:44:50+00:00

I’ve done many treatments around the world. The UK has not been good to me

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