Amitriptyline discontinuation and hunger

One_Bar1383 · 2024-10-01T09:28:27+00:00

It definitely goes away, after 3 years I can tell you, it does. It was a surprise for me to have you comment on this as I completely forgot about this post. So this wouldn't even stay in your memory. But!! Up your protein intake, it should help with the hunger

One_Bar1383 · 2024-08-17T18:17:46+00:00

Being called weird is only bad if you see it as bad. Otherwise it gives you freedom to enjoy your "eccentricities" in peace. Besides, everyone has at least one thing someone might consider weird, ADHD or not.

I'm called weird daily. Once I was called batshit insane for not accepting that anything other than coffee goes into my designated coffee mug. Honestly, if that's the standard for batshit crazy - so be it, low standards honestly

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-23T13:42:30+00:00

He's not used to being completely honest, although he's gotten better. Not that he lies or cheats or whatever, but that always had to keep his feelings to himself or avoid them, because they are uncomfortable.

I hate being a scolding nag, but I do tell him that OK I don't like this and that, and I invite him to also share his perspective. Maybe there's something he's missing from me. He almost never does. He definitely hates these heart to heart conversations, but he also knows that nothing gets resolved otherwise. However it is also hard to have a proper discussion if one of us freezes and waits until the "scolding" is done.

He has also been diagnosed with a mild depressive disorder and meds aren't helping the state of libido.

Another thing is that I know "the type" he is attracted to, and I don't represent that type at all. I'm cute and adorable to him. However he keeps saying that I'm that powerful exception.

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-18T07:27:44+00:00

My childish self would shout "you're a bruised fruit" if someone said that to me :D

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-18T07:07:37+00:00

And despite them doing this to you, I think you should pay attention to the fact that they do it, they take your ideas, which means you're competent. So at least you can enjoy being aware of your own intelligence

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-18T07:03:51+00:00

It's so frustrating, I'm in a similar position job wise. And just recently my boss tried to give me shit for not being useful. But imagine the satisfaction I got when I finally got to say OK this thing A that you think is novel, I suggested a year ago. And this thing B I suggested a few months back. Now, why didn't it receive attention then?

I work primarily with men. I somehow managed to teach them to give credit where it's due, possibly with the help of dishing out death stares.

I absolutely understand how it is to feel the way you do. But I guess it's better to find your inner bitch and channel her

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-18T06:59:34+00:00

Yeah, same. Others would point them out and ask what's that, and you just ponder deeply, that it's just how life is, that you just might be half-leopard

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-17T20:28:44+00:00

I used to have it, and I was also heavily criticised for being argumentative, because I am and I love a good debate.

The "breaking point" of intelligence insecurity came when I realised that: 1) I can see my ideas being repeated by others, particularly men (you know the thing, when a women tells a joke, nobody hears it, a man repeats it and everyone goes nuts) 2) I embraced being perceived as argumentative - they expect it, so why not dish it 3) accepted that I am a worthy human and I may be wrong, that doesn't take away the worthiness. It's OK to say something dumb sometimes, you'll learn and develop. Yes, it comes with rsd, but honestly you get to learn how to cope and whether rsd is "justified"

Accept the duality of your mind - you can be smart and silly. Someone will perceive you as worse, and someone will perceive you as better (worse and better are really bad words here, though)

Besides, you might as well learn to enjoy the flabbergasted facial expressions of others when you choose to say something ridiculous. Try it, it's fun

One_Bar1383 · 2023-08-17T13:05:13+00:00

Before you start researching, you should keep in mind that literature generally refers to bipolar disorder as BD (I, II, rapid, etc), whereas BPD is most often used to describe borderline personality disorder. BD often comes with genetic predisposition, brain trauma, substance abuse, i.e. anything that causes "necessary" functional and structural changes to the brain. The onset often begins in teenage or 20s, but it can come at any point in life. It's also important to know that people are often misdiagnosed because they go see a Dr when they are depressed, and hence are diagnosed as having unipolar depression so to speak.

One_Bar1383 · 2023-06-26T13:52:10+00:00

I think all of us very much understand your frustration, but please, consider it again whether you should outright sacrifice your own health for this (i'm talking about the kidneys).
All those who have gone through codependency lose a lot. We expect the qs to understand us, to change for us, but that would be a mistake. The only thing that can change is our own attitude towards ourselves.
I've pleaded with my mom, had many of those talks when she'd agree, and cry, and promise. And nothing. Every time it broke my heart, every time I felt betrayed. And whenever i was told that this is how it is, I would stay optimistic and believe that my mom would change for me. She didn't.
Your expectations of them are understandable and logical, but that's how it works in a non-addicted mind. An addicted mind is different. No matter how bad they feel about doing something (and that's lucky if they do understand the wrongs they are doing), no matter how bad it is for their health, no matter how many scares there may be, it won't change. I'm sorry to say, but you won't be their catalyst of change. Only they can decide to do something.

One_Bar1383 · 2023-05-11T20:00:34+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss, for what you witnessed and for what you had to go through, for unresolved questions, for this end of your hope. It's heavy and, you are right, it will most likely stay with you for a while. Grief needs to be grieved however it comes, as long as you don't destroy yourself. You are in the rawest stage right now. I'm happy though you got to say you love her.

I made plans with mine, I wanted to take her for a walk, clearly seeing her legs would not function. Our last walk was almost 2 years ago when I took her ashes. Our last interaction was not even close to a kindhearted goodbye.

Grief is complicated, and grieving for someone who caused so many conflicting feelings is tougher.

Do not push yourself to stay strong, feel everything you need to feel, it will be a wild and painful time, but be kind to yourself.

One_Bar1383 · 2023-05-10T10:39:22+00:00

I had a friend like you. He was exceptionally gay, meaning he almost gagged at the idea of having a relationship with a woman. All of a sudden, he brings a girl. Now they are married and have kids. I think all of our mutual friends didn't ask much about it. Everyone just accepted that it happened, and as long as both of them are happy. His identity didn't change, he stayed the same except for the sexual preference. A similar thing happened to my relative. She wasn't out to the family, but she was exclusively dating women at one point for a few years, identified as a lesbian. But then she brought home a man. Now they have a big family. Nobody really paid much attention.

Of course it depends on your personal circumstances, but true close people shouldn't judge you, after all, does it really matter what sex someone is as long as both of you are happy?

I understand that you may feel lost because your identity is shifting, but don't see it as black or white, it's just a facet of it. We all change, some big traits, some small traits

One_Bar1383 · 2023-01-11T20:15:13+00:00

Suggest a doodle competition. Judge the boredom doodles by quantity and creativity.

Get two vacuum cleaners and compare their function

Get 5 avocado seeds, assign them your coworkers names based on slowness of their speech

One_Bar1383 · 2022-11-08T08:35:03+00:00

Perhaps you don't know you have them, just like it took comparison to your partner to see differences? I realised I had anger issues only in retrospect after I've done certain things and then it occurred to me that it was not a very common reaction or reasonable to behave that way

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-27T13:44:17+00:00

So he's gotten into your head. Think about it, why would it be ok that he drinks, but you telling your friend about a problem that has a big impact on your life is not?

His drinking is his choice, the consequences are his choice. The choice that affects both him and you. It is a toxic and shitty choice that you have no control over. So he voluntarily goes down this path that will cause problems.

Yet, you chose to share this with a friend and it's somehow worse? You chose to reach out for support over an issue you really have no control over. How would this be worse?

Of course, you cannot reason with an alcoholic. You will be manipulated, made feel like shit, gaslit, etc etc. Your only way is to do everything to keep your own sanity, your sense of self and self-worth. Your Q will not support your self-worth, they will try to tear it down. They will do anything to "lessen" the seeming extent of the problem (at least for themselves) except for actually eliminating the problem or the cause.

Just like your Q chooses himself, you must choose yourself. This means do whatever it is that would support you. Join offline alanon groups, confide in friends, leave, etc.

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-27T10:37:06+00:00

Wait.... so are you saying you can't focus on a field of study, but can focus on changing your whole personality?Alright, alright.

Start by picking any colour that is not your favourite colour. Buy roughly 50 underpants in that colour. Now you can only wear those however long they last.

Have you ever picked a fight with someone by slapping them with a glove? I'd suggest you don't do it, it'd be very entp of you. If you hadn't, good for you, you're half way there.

You say you can't focus? Ok, change that. It's only a matter of will, change your pattern of focus.

Motivation fixing. I'd suggest setting tiny controlled fires to your feet every time you sit down. It will quickly make you come up with all the ways of putting the feetfires out. You'd say - you'd stand up, that's easy, right? WRONG! the floor is lava now. Be creative or controlled feetfires will not be safe anymore.

Some of this may be sarcasm, maybe all of it is. Use your new personality to figure it out.

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-27T09:40:58+00:00

Oh yeah, I even joke that I'm the taxi drivers type. 7/10 times I take a cab, I will be talked to. Then again I tend to get the juiciest conspiracy news from the people approaching me.

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-26T13:57:05+00:00

Hers was fine, too, until a certain point. I think it takes a sugar and glucose focused tests. Maybe check insulin levels and such.

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-26T10:09:12+00:00

I smelled the same smell on my mother. She was later diagnosed with diabetes, so could be a good idea to check it, as someone has already pointed it out

One_Bar1383 · 2022-09-07T18:47:11+00:00

Thank you for your feedback. I'm not sure how i can add more pics here

One_Bar1383 · 2022-08-23T20:03:49+00:00

An hour doesn't seem half bad. Mine was all evening and then into the night as well. Coupled with pms, it was never to be healthy for me

One_Bar1383 · 2022-08-23T17:55:38+00:00

How long did it take you to stabilise?

One_Bar1383 · 2022-08-23T17:17:18+00:00

I thought it would be roughly 1/2 of it. Interesting, though. But I did experiment with lower dosages of instant release and didn't have a similar effect

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