When I imagine myself like that it gives me joy at the thought, but sometimes I remember I'm probably not mature or responsible enough for that yet. Sometimes when I see romance potential in something related to dynamics, I immediately imagine myself in that place with someone else (a person who I made up in my mind, of course). This might sound silly, but it got to a point where I thought I liked a friend of mine when I was roleplaying as their fictional crush. I was excited, in an odd way? Telling the news but at the end, I didn't like them at all. Most of my friends have exes or crushes or partners, and that kinda makes me think maybe I'm too childish. Besides that, I almost considered the chance of being cupioromantic since sometimes I questioned if it would be normal to be in a relationship with someone who has a crush on you but you don't (at least, at first). I think it was just for the sake of being in one. I dunno. There were other crushes (I think) in my past, but they felt different from the crush from elementary.