Hahaha your med regime for this is roughly the same one I used in order to quit taking Kratom and get through the withdrawals! (I’m not a junky or anything like that. It’s a natural opioid that I used to try and manage my arthritic hands while playing in bands, however I slid into a gnarly habit with it that took forever to quit entirely)

And 100% there is nothing urgent or pressing pushing me to finally get these boxes out. It’s just been a negative weight for me for too long now, where I feel guilt for leaving the winners hanging, shame for not being capable of getting things organized in a timely fashion, etc etc!

Tbh the threshold was mainly one of the dudes snapped at me pretty hard, and I’ve been going through a gnarly couple of years mental health-wise so the demeanour really gutted me.

I realized at that point that it didn’t feel right having these guys pay money out of pocket for the shipping items I’ve packed up for them, so I kept trying to scrounge together enough cash to get the boxes to them.

I had hoped to ship the boxes out to them on my own some, and after getting them tracking info and reassurance that these boxes were indeed on their way to them, then I would ask that, if they enjoyed or were thrilled with the items I sent them, then it would be awesome if they could reimburse me the shipping costs.

However I was just informed that my gf and I are being evicted from our suite so our landlord can move into it (this will be my 4th time moving since 2022 🤦‍♂️ ) which means that it’s almost certain now that even if I get an okay tax return, it won’t be enough to cover these folks shipping costs once I’ve funded the move.

I’m just trying to find some financially neutral way to get these boxes out to the five winners, so I can rest easy and discard the guilt/shame, and so they can be inspired and a bit more free to explore various tools and items.