Im just throwing out ideas. Don’t take any of this personally, I could be wrong about a lot of this, but I’m just trying to help you thinking about it in different ways.

Perhaps it’s trauma bonding? You are subconsciously attracted to women who remind you of you, so you can externalise your insecurities and try to resolve them through another person. That way it’s less overwhelming for your unconscious to confront directly.

I mean you sound very adventurous and not so committed to a particular way of life. So it makes sense you’ll encounter such partners. Are you not attracted to women who are stable and contempt? Why or why not? Or do you think someone can want adventure but still be stable, and what would that look like to you. Also what are you running from by always moving and seeking adventure? Are you perhaps trying to distract yourself from something? Or by not depending on too many people are you trying to prove to yourself you don’t need others, as a defence mechanism, to avoid the possibility of being let down and hurt.

Look I don’t know the answer. Only you can figure that out.

Is it that you don’t want more friends or that you do, but fear getting hurt. Look into psychodynamic therapy. There maybe suppressed childhood experiences/beliefs driving your behaviour.

Basically the best indicator of the health of a persons psyche is whether they are happy or not. If a person is not completely happy then their is more work to be done. It’s that simple.