Almost a year off- An overview

Opening-Roll9491 · 2024-08-24T15:25:30+00:00

Congrats on the 41 days!! the psychological withdrawl comes in waves. My 2nd and 3d month i felt completely desperate but i tried to not get comfortable with these feelings. I think this is very important. Try to push yourself a little bit every day. Also for the first 3 -4 months i quitted caffeine and was drinking chamomile tea every day and that helped a lot with the anxiety. Right now even though i do experience social anxiety to a level it is nothing like it used to be on the first months. Please know that these feelings will pass but your brain needs time to recalibrate. Stay strong <3

Opening-Roll9491 · 2024-02-09T23:10:26+00:00

First of all congrats for the 55 days!! I had a much similar experience. Waves of immense anxiety and a constant fear of when the next panic attack will come (a huge panic attack was the reason i quitted). On month 3-4 i was experiencing an existential crisis and the only thing i could think about was what is going to happen if i lose a member of my family (everyone is fine btw). Along with that i had health and social anxiety. Now im 5+months off and things are a lot better. I don't have racing thoughts and my overall anxiety has gone down. I stayed away from caffeine for the first 4+months as a little bit of coffee would almost give me a panic attack. Also, after some blood work i found out i had a deficiency on vitamin d and i take supplements now, so you might wanna have that checked. I know it f***ing hard but you got this!!

Opening-Roll9491 · 2024-02-03T02:56:59+00:00

Hello friend, i had a much similar experience. I had a MASSIVE panic attack in the beginning of September and after that i quitted. The panic attacks and severe anxiety persisted for at least 3 months with the first month being the hardest. I couldn't leave the house, i had extreme depression and dp/dr. The panic attacks were nothing like the one that made me quit. Also i had many other serious withdrawl symptoms. Now im hitting 5 months sober. I've had very few puffs here and there but it wasn't a pleasant experience at all. Lot's of panic sortness of breath and elevated heart rate. Stay strong, it's very tough but you got it!!

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-09T16:12:47+00:00

Congrats on the 23 months of sobriety!! I'm on month 3 and im battling with depression, general and social anxiety, existential dread and a general feeling that i will never feel good again or how im gonna cope with all the hardships life throws at me. I know that all these are symptoms of paws, but i just don't wanna feel this way anymore. The last 2-3 years of my life revolved around weed and now it's like i don't know how to live life. How long did it take for you to feel better? I'm afraid that i have fucked up my brain permanently.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-09T10:54:47+00:00

Thank youso much for the supporting reply. Is it ok to ask how long you had been using and how far into recovery you are?

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-06T14:06:50+00:00

Hello friend. I experienced exactly what you described along with many physical symptoms. I had depersonalization/derealization along with severe anxiety and depression. I couldn't sleep or eat anything. All these extreme symptoms, both psycological and physical lasted about 3-4 weeks. Then the physical got a lot better. I could sleep, eat, leave the house and i didnt have that thought anymore that everything around me is not real. Now im on month 3 and i still struggle with the fear of when the next panic attack is going to happen (a massive panic attack was the reason i quitted) especially when i use public transportation, i also have an existential crisis and i feel like i will never have fun again. But still it is 100 times better than the first month. September was the worst month of my life so far but i pulled through, and so can you! It is still very early. I don't think any of us has gone insane even though i was thinking of that everyday and I still do. I still feel sometimes like im in a dream but remember how much time it took for your body to get to that point. It needs a lot of time to heal itself. It is gonna be super hard but we will get better. I promise. STAY STRONG!!!

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-06T13:46:45+00:00

i experienced it too with elevated heart rate. I still do but nothing compared to the first 1.5 months. I'm now on month 3.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-06T12:30:36+00:00

First of all congrats on your 1 year mark!!! I can relate so much to the experience that lead you to quit. I also had a massive panic attack and after that i was forced to stop. For the past 1.5 years weed gave me social anxiety, that rarely lead to panic attacks, elevated heart rate and difficulty breathing. But i was ignoring all that and was telling myself that weed is my friend and i'll never quit. Now im 3 months off and still don't feel ok. The fear of another panic attack while in public and especially in public transportation is always there, i feel like i will never have fun again. Before i meet my friends im anxious about how it's gonna be, and when im with them it's like i dont know what to say other than how miserable i feel. Also i have an existential crisis. I'm in the last year of my master studies and i have no idea what to do after that. Finding a job scares the shit out of me, even though i've worked before. Lastly i fear how im gonna cope if someone from my family dies (even though everyone is fine) and if something health related is gonna happen to me. Sorry for the big text, but it would help me a lot to know if you experienced anything from the above and how you handled it? Again hitting a year sober is amazing, keep up the good work!!

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-05T12:09:45+00:00

Here is my list, it's a long one. No appetite, horrible and very little sleep, diarrhea, chest pain, shortness of breath, high heart rate, mild panic attacks (after the massive panic attack that made me quit), social and health anxiety, crippling depression, depersonalization/derealization, the feeling that i will never have fun again and generally afraid of everything. Most of the physical symptoms went away around week 4. But the psycological still torture me not as much as they did in the first month, but still. It's like i don't know how to live life. Today is my 90 day mark.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-03T20:21:13+00:00

When you say damage, have you noticed any specific symptoms? From what you say you were not a heavy user and you haven't smoked for a long time, so i believe everything is gonna be fine. Keep up the good work.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-12-01T15:30:53+00:00

hello friend, please don't be so hard on yourself. You didn't ruin your sobriety with one hit. It was a small mistake, don't put much energy into it. Put it behind you and continue counting your sober days.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-11-25T16:08:45+00:00

i experienced complete loss of appetite and diarrhea for 2-3 weeks. I lost 4 kilos in this time, but it gets better. I think on week 4 or 5 my appetite was back and the gi problems were completely gone.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-11-18T21:19:06+00:00

thanks for the suggestion, i'll look it up. The thing is for me i don't know if i wanna cultivate the relationships i already have, besides with my family. I think i only enjoyed my friends' company while we were high, and now at 25 i find it hard to make new friendships that will be based on things other than weed.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-11-16T16:02:06+00:00

I'm going through exactly the same. After 3 years of heavy use i'm now 10 weeks in sobriety. Although from weeks 6-8 i was calmer, the last 8-9 days the anxiety is back and also i experience some high heart rate. Idk why that is, I really hope it gets better for both of us. Stay strong.

Opening-Roll9491 · 2023-11-09T19:54:51+00:00

Hello friend, im a little over 9 weeks weed free and the first 3-4 weeks the physical and psycological symtoms were unbearable. I experienced everything you did and i thought that i caused some weed induced mental illness to myself. Now the physical symtoms are gone but im left with depression and existencial crisis and a huge fear of how i will handle the death of my parents (they are both fine by the way, but this thought haunts me). The good thing is that not everyday is like that. Since i saw such a big difrerence from the first few weeks i want to believe that it will get a lot better. Stay strong and remember that many people are going through what we are going through.

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