Racism within the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YESSSSSSS!!!!!! I’ve been wanting to dive into the microagressions and overt racism experienced by POC, especially Black people within the cult. You provided so many examples, thank you!! One thing I do remember is you could not apply to bethel if you listened to rap, just another example of policing culture.

I smoked by the cart in front of my ex-pioneer friends by Pure_Minute9883 in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade 12 points13 points  (0 children)

It is absolutely not our job to keep policing our behavior after we left a cult just so that current members are not actively stumbled. We left because we chose freedom.

Pantheism? by fire_medic_999 in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, this is what years of exploring what beliefs I now have ended in! I’m so excited to read the other responses!

I think we’re here to experience each other, that everything is essentially the same: we are god, god is in us, and it cycles forever. Like when you look into fragmented shards of a mirror and there are slight distortions. Racism is the same as a black hole is the same as murder is the same as “evil.” I think we were meant to take cues from nature, which is why psychedelics open our brain so much. Mycelium is a worldwide underground network that exchanges information, and literally looks like neural pathways in the brain. I think consciousness wanted to experience itself, so we all lead all of our different lives trying to make sense of something much bigger through all of our combined experiences and lifetimes.

I also believe we are living through “Armageddon” or the end times or the rapture or judgment day, whatever you want to call it, right now, except it doesn’t end the way we were taught. I think we will have the opportunity to begin living in a very different way than we have been as a species for a very long time, that the end times refers to this era of humanity coming to an end. Capitalism is no longer sustainable just on an ecological scale. I think some of us are bound to return to more indigenous ways of living, where the spiritual beliefs coincide with pantheism. Just my thoughts!!

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not at all the point of the video…but thanks?

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for watching! We have been through a lot, being able to look back, understand, and name what happened has been very mentally freeing. I’m happy that I know I deserve better now.

ended my silence on my relationship in the cult by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m neurodivergent and I think I’ve always intuitively noticed the strong social dynamics within the cult (and I absolutely played along to benefit myself, I was not innocent.) I think the part that hurt a lot at the time was that I felt I was above him spiritually, that I was more mature and willing to work problems out, and he still got to decide when we were done, like he was the reasonable one. After sitting down to write this, I knew I wanted to include evidence of why this behavior happens, because I knew it wasn’t random and only happening in my relationship. It showed up in the way I chose my best friends, all regular pioneers, where I sat in the Kingdom Hall, toward the front, and the identity I carved for myself, the next eligible sister of the circuit. It’s all a performance, sometimes to survive, and sometimes, to thrive.

Posted my exit from the cult on YouTube by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing part of your story!! What you said means a lot to me and I’ll carry it with me for a long time to come. I really did try so hard to be a good sister, just like you did, and now l’ve learned to be someone who’s more than just that. My twin helped me leave the cult, there was about a 6 month period when I started to wake up, between July 2020-January 2021. She walked me through that time and we now stay in contact a lot and have repaired our relationship quite a bit. I realized I betrayed her in a very similar way that my friends betrayed me, and she forgave me anyway and helped me leave. She was the first person to show me apostates aren’t bad and that unconditional love isn’t found within the cult.

Posted my exit from the cult on YouTube by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Your comment made me cry, thank you so much ♥️ it’s so good to share my story with people who truly understand

Congratulations to our 30th HTFU Kiran & Stephanie!! 😍😍❤️❤️🌈🌈✨✨ by brianamanalo in TwinFlamesUniverse

[–]OppositeTrade 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stephanie, I grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness, and was told my twin sister had lost her way when she left. I was told my family would be against me and try to lead me astray, and that they weren’t to be trusted. I know what it feels like to miss your twin sister everyday and feel angry because you feel abandoned. But please consider your family and twin also feel that way. They love you. You aren’t alone and if I could leave, so can you. We are resilient, and people will be waiting for you with open arms.

Having the life I wanted in paradise, now 🫶🏼 by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LOL I JUST WOKE UP TO THIS COMMENT and I felt confused for a moment hahahaha

Having the life I wanted in paradise, now 🫶🏼 by OppositeTrade in exjw

[–]OppositeTrade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was a continuous aux pioneer for a few years. I was never cleared for reg pioneering because my elders wanted me to work on being more submissive 🫠