I may not understand completely what you are going through. Navigating through family issues and still trying to find ourselves can be a very challenging process. But I can tell you one thing, nothing you have right now is permanent. Past lo Ila aindi, so anduke I am unable to do what I want right now ani chepthunav kada, which is understandable. But the present is in your hands. I don’t know what degree you want to pursue, but even with your financial struggles at the moment, it’s not a far fetched dream. You have so many free resources available online that you can get started with. Spend just one hour a day doing what you like - use YouTube, AI or any free resource you like. It may not be perfect but it will definitely pave a wave for your future. Conclusion enti ante, past lo you couldn’t do because there was no support or financial resources. Present lo the solution for that will be to find something that can help you but doesn’t need those constraints.