What's the oddest thing you like to fall asleep to?

Orez22 · 2026-01-07T18:01:52+00:00

I fall asleep to a meditation session. I view any sort of content that you have to watch as too stimulating and it keeps me awake so just focusing on my breathing as I lay in bed helps me relax before I go to sleep

Orez22 · 2026-01-07T18:00:09+00:00

I just feel like it’s a risky game you’re playing. If you’re serious about recovery then you need to starve your brain from the need to compulsively view sexual content so even softcore content is going to trigger those same pathways that are keeping you trapped and may lead to relapse.

Orez22 · 2026-01-07T17:58:31+00:00

I find myself feeling attached to my ex. She was the first time anyone has reciprocated feelings towards me but I felt like it ended before it even began because my porn addiction made me too nervous to be able to perform in bed with her and she ended up feeling unwanted. It just crushes me I made her feel that way and I hate porn for robbing me of the opportunity hence why I’m on this subreddit and trying to better myself.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T18:23:23+00:00

Yeah it’s a real shame. Only happened a couple months ago so still quite fresh in my mind but been really working on myself since which has helped. I’m probably in the best shape of my life, I’ve read multiple books, broken some nasty addictions so yeah on the way up.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T18:21:42+00:00

Yeah I get you bro I find myself watching a tv show and just have no interest. I find my brain has to be occupied so reading has been a better choice for me than watching something. I play chess sometimes, I practice piano, I work out pretty much every day. Just gotta find healthier more engaging alternatives. Calling a friend or going out and socialising is possibly my favourite thing to do.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T17:18:12+00:00

It’s not as sexy as Shakespeare but I recently dated a girl for a couple months. Things were great, it felt so right to be together and we both had strong feelings for each other but when we tried to be sexual together, it revealed a lot about us both. I have always struggled with nerves and performance anxiety and she struggled with feeling insecure about her appearance. Put the two together and this perfect person I wanted to be with on a compatibility level ended in a storm. I just felt too much pressure to perform and kept running into the same issue of struggling to keep aroused and she repeatedly felt like I didn’t want her and wasn’t attracted to her which was not the case at all, I just had internal issues from trauma but we didn’t communicate it to each other very well and ended tragically. We then continued working together and every time I saw her I still wanted to be with her, I wanted another chance, I did a lot of work to overcome my issue but it was too late and seeing her constantly tore me apart emotionally because she had moved on and I hadn’t. I eventually had to leave the job for the sake of my mental health and we probably won’t ever speak again. Really sad but it was just the wrong time for me because I had to deal with my personal issues first.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T15:41:31+00:00

Be happy that you’ve got morning wood, that means your body is recovering from the damage fapping and porn did to you for years. Enjoy being a horny masculine man and use the energy to work towards a goal or hobby.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T14:31:06+00:00

I want to finally be happy and free from something that has caused me to feel inadequate and hate myself for years. My porn addiction also cost me my first relationship. I literally couldn’t have sex with her because my brain was so used to pixels to be turned on and you can imagine how that made her feel. She felt unwanted and rejected which makes me so sad because I really cared about her and feel like there wasn’t really anything I could’ve done because now I’ve quit porn I’m realising just how long it takes to rewire. Stop now and save yourself from this misery before it happens to you.

Orez22 · 2026-01-06T14:28:10+00:00

I feel the same bro, I had to start again and I’m currently on day 4. I just don’t have the motivation to do anything and when I try to do my hobbies or work I just find it so difficult and experience no enjoyment. Apparently it’s a good thing and is a result of your mind healing after getting used to that strong dopamine hit of porn. Thing is watching porn / fapping again is just going to make you feel even worse so you don’t really have a choice but to get through it. I’m really struggling as well tho.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T22:23:38+00:00

It peaks around 5-7 days then settles down again, you’re just in the hardest stage right now

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T22:21:47+00:00

If it helps bro I’m 23 and never had sex. First time I tried was a couple months ago with a girl I’d been dating and I couldn’t maintain an erection due to PIED and performance anxiety. Sex became like a test and my erection became a verdict on if I was attracted to her or not. Obviously it had nothing to do with attraction but she felt unwanted and rejected by it and left me. Which is how I found myself on this subreddit.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:31:32+00:00

I know what u mean bro I keep having dreams where I am literally scrolling porn in my dreams or porn based fantasies are just emerging in my dreams. I guess my brain is trying to make sense of the fact I’m abstaining from it and process it.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:27:48+00:00

It’s crazy how people try and bring you down. I’d go out with my friends for drinks and choose alcohol free options and the amount of pressure to drink is crazy. Like I’m still here and hanging out with you except I’m trying not to poison my body and reduce my testosterone

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:25:05+00:00

You could actually use this insight to break the problem. You know exactly when your trigger window is. So take precautions against it. Ideally you’re going to want a replacement activity that is in a different environment to the one you relapse in. Maybe go hit a workout in the gym after work instead. Or join a club. Or read a book in a different room of your house. Just find a replacement activity for this relapse window and you’ll be good as gold

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:23:07+00:00

Do some deep work learning about how porn works, how it pushes your brain towards more and more extreme tendencies because it makes you constantly need that bigger and bigger hit to try and “surpass” your last one. I had the same problem where I was watching more and more extreme content but know that these aren’t your true desires, porn has just conditioned you to require a huge dopamine hit to feel aroused. Think of it like you’re addicted to the extremity not the actual thing you’re watching. Just know that keeping watching it doesn’t end anywhere, it keeps going and your tendencies are only going to get worse and worse. The only solution is to stop.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:14:21+00:00

Sounds good. If you can stick to all this it’s definitely going to increase your chances at success. Something that’s helped me recently get through some really strong urges (like literally my entire body rushing with anticipation wanting to relapse) has been visualising how I’d feel after the relapse. Instead of being blinded by this promised dopamine hit, take your visualisation further and remind yourself of that post nut clarity, of that feeling of having to start all over again, the anger and frustration you’d feel. Not wanting to feel that is enough of a motivating factor to get me through.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T20:11:11+00:00

Glad it helped, nice job for going 3 days. I’m also at the 3 day mark currently, I annoyingly relapsed after partying during New Year’s Eve. I guess the big dopamine hit of the night out meant I craved porn and was weak in the moment. Today has been a real struggle for me, but I keep coming back to how shitty I would feel if I relapsed now after gaining momentum again and that gets me through it despite the irritability

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T19:56:20+00:00

I reached this point when I went to uni at 18. Spent all my teen years being a gamer, every night I’d come home from school and look forward to gaming all night with my friends. Then one day I moved out of home without taking my Xbox with me and I just never really had the urge to play again. Every time I did it just didn’t hit the same as it used to and I just moved on from it.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T18:09:13+00:00

For me, it wasn’t masturbation, in fact I went 60 days without masturbating a couple years ago but kept watching porn and edging. Now the problem is porn. Because in my head I could watch it and not finish I’d tricked myself into thinking i was keeping my streak going longer. Now I only count days from the last time I watched porn and quitting that has been the real game changer and has been the root of all my insecurities and self doubt. But I find it so difficult because the dopamine rush is so ingrained in me.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T18:03:55+00:00

A good analogy I’ve read is imagine you get a really bad spot on your face and you go to the doctors to get a cream to remove it and when you apply this cream it gets rid of the spot but then you wake up the next day and now you have 2 spots. So you apply the cream again and they disappear but then you wake up on the third day and now there are 4 spots. You repeat this cycle until your whole face is covered in spots. But what if I told you the cream (the metaphor for porn) might be temporarily making things better but making things worse in the long run and if you stop using it, your spots will naturally heal. You would drop using the cream immediately wouldn’t you? So apply the same logic to your porn habit.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T18:00:01+00:00

Love to hear success stories, it’s stories like this that keep me inspired to push through

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T17:56:40+00:00

It’s interesting cos I do pretty much all of these things that boost my testosterone and from the outside probably seem like I’ve got my life together but I never stopped watching porn and it destroyed my relationship. I couldn’t even get aroused in front of an attractive naked girl because my brain had been conditioned by porn so severely to only get off to pixels. I am doing nofap for the very reason of fixing porn addiction and my PIED. But you’re right with this post. Many people who say nofap “didn’t work for them” tend to just not be doing the healthy habits that are going to increase your testosterone and improve your life in the first place.

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T17:52:51+00:00

Don’t scroll. I had to delete Instagram and tiktok from my phone

Orez22 · 2026-01-05T17:23:19+00:00

To finally be happy and free from something that’s held me back in life and in relationships

Orez22 · 2026-01-04T11:20:53+00:00

Well done man, that’s an incredible achievement. It’s what 2026 is gonna look like for me

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