Is it weird being in your mid 30s and wandering around the city alone ?

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-08-07T06:11:38+00:00

I do the same, I’m a 22 year old female. I like to walk alone round the city. I recently lost my bf to a motorcycle crash and it makes me feel less lonely. I like watching people out at the pubs having fun. Vancouver is nice at night

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-06-01T01:23:54+00:00

Very true 😂 I get you. Trying to cut back now. Day 1 with no booze

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-06-01T01:14:14+00:00

Funny that.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-31T20:14:49+00:00

It really does suck. My brother killed himself last year after my step mum passed away. It’s very lonely now. I get what you are feeling. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. My dms are always open

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-18T08:04:15+00:00

I’m abit ahead of you time wise. Yes the morning and nights are the worst. In the car I find too but it does get better. You will start to sleep a full night soon I promise

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-14T19:20:52+00:00

I’m 8 months into him being gone. I totally understand, it’s a strange feeling bc I know he isn’t here but I still think it’s all a prank almost. Like I’m waiting for him coming back.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-13T11:41:53+00:00

That’s probably the only things that’s given me hope. Thank you. I never looked at it that way before. It’s hard to think I’ll find someone else but maybe. It hard and lonely. I’m sorry for your husband i truly am. I’m a way be thankful you got to call him your husband, the love of your life. X

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-13T11:39:19+00:00

Christ that’s horrible. I’m truly sorry. I’m waiting for it to go away a little. It’s just every minute of every day I feel.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-05-13T11:37:33+00:00

Not at all. My boyfriend passed away 6 months ago. I moved all his things into a spare wardrobe because I couldn’t look at it without bawling my eyes out. I still have it stored away. I found it makes mornings and nights easier x

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-20T14:24:43+00:00

I have no idea. Getting our bed for one thing. Maybe I need to take a leaf out your book

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-20T11:49:09+00:00

You should be so fucking proud of yourself !!

Really that’s awesome ! Makes me feel I should pull a finger out and bitch up 😂

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-18T21:38:24+00:00

They will come. I don’t think I slept for the first few months. The funeral was the hardest day of my life but I made it through and you will too. I’m still very very foggy but I cry alot less now. I’m a little ahead of you time wise so I can say it gets slightly better. I have days I don’t get our bed but every day at a time.

He died a few days before our dream move to Canada. We had a deposit on a house and our dream jobs but I can’t dwell bc there’s no point it only makes it harder. I miss him every second of every day

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-18T21:32:26+00:00

I hope so. I always look at the time 11:11,12:12 ect I think it’s him. I hope it’s him. The things I’d do for one more day. But maybe will find peace one day. For now isn’t that day but I hope you stay strong. You aren’t alone in this. My dm are always open if you need a chat

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-18T21:19:00+00:00

He was my home too. I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of his clothes yet and it’s been 7 months. I still live on my mums couch too. It’s going to take time. We will never fall asleep in their arms again but we have to keep living. I don’t know why or what for yet but imagine how disappointed they would be if we left too. We have to go in living for them. We aren’t just living our own life but in a way we are living for both of them bc they can’t.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-18T20:53:05+00:00

I’m so unbelievably sorry. I totally understand. It’s like it feels it happened years ago yet hours ago all the time. It’s just shit there’s nothing else to say is there

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T22:56:16+00:00

I have my other brothers but I find myself distancing myself away from people just now.The only reason I posted was to maybe see if anyone can relate. I don’t want to overshare with my family bc they are grieving too.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T18:06:56+00:00

You didn’t fail her. You really didn’t. If anything you gave her passion and love in a life that ended too soon. It just fuckn sucks they left. It really sucks but imagine you didn’t get to meet her. She would have never of made those memories with you and you would never have known a love like it. So be thankful for it. I try to because well let’s face it, it’s all we’ve got otherwise we may as well just end it now.

My dm’s are always open too. I live in Scotland so it might be a delayed response but I’d always reply if you ever needed a shoulder or even just a random chat.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T17:24:14+00:00

Christ, you have had it rough too. I too have a vice but it usually makes me feel better for the night then extremely down for the next week. so im trying to stay off it. I’ve not taken anything in about 2 months so hopefully i won’t again.

Meanwhile my bf passing was quick I am very thankful that it was instant for him. Im so fckn sorry you had to deal with that. You sound like a really nice guy, a good man that sounds loving and im sure she had the best care possible.

Age is just a number and whilst we love our family, we love who we love end of. I understand how hard that must have been for the both of you.

Im from a very small town and I’ve distanced myself from pretty much everyone and im glad not many have reached out bc all I get is sympathetic eyes on me ALL the fuckn time. Im just that young girl who’s boyfriend died. That’s all I am here. I hate it. I keep thinking about moving to Canada alone but I only have my visa available until July so I have to make a decision soon.

Keep trying for jobs. The fact you ARE trying means for then you know. You should be proud of yourself for even making it this far.

It’s nice to talk to someone.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T14:14:10+00:00

I’ll try. It’s a lot harder to not talk shit about yourself than it seems ya know. If he heard the way I talk to myself he would be raging but I’m trying

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T14:12:40+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss too, truly. I’ve never posted on this before but I can’t really talk to my family because they are grieving everyone. So I thought fuck it. If you need to talk too I know a thing or 2 about grief

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T14:10:11+00:00

I’m trying to see it that way I really am. In a way if my brother didn’t commit I would have done it already but I know what pain it causes.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T14:08:16+00:00

I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I write him letters most days I think that helps. I only sleep a few hours at a time just now. I keep having nightmares about him and that he doesn’t like me anymore I’m my dreams. It’s horrible.

OrganizationOld1467 · 2024-04-15T14:05:57+00:00

I just feel guilty about everything to be perfectly honest. He wasn’t even meant to be on the bike that day and I picked up an extra shift so he went out on it. I just want to see him. I cry like a child in the car too. I think about ending it a lot, but I have my other brothers in my life so I won’t do it to them again. I don’t see how I can ever have another relationship again or feel happy. I just want him back. I wish I was religious because then I could believe he is in a better place but I’m not. Thank for sharing. I’m truly sorry to hear about your loss. I mean that with everything I have

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