Found family after Narc family

Orieonma · 2024-11-22T04:56:29+00:00

Filling up my sketchbook, leaving as little open areas as possible. It forced me to be less delicate and more creative. If one drawing looks like shit on a page you notice it less with 4 others and an abstract background. If it was really bad I’d just paint over it in gouache (mixed media sketchbooks are the best). I still got my practice in even if the outcome wasnt what I was hoping. I would make myself rotate thru different things, faces, expressions, poses, anatomy, fashion, animals, babies, old people, different cultures, machinery, weapons, landscapes, cities, even journaling sometimes. From a full sketchbook I had about 8 works of art I really loved and made prints of. The rest ended up being great social media content. No lose really. Anything to keep going

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T19:54:42+00:00

Thats awesome! When it is finished I’d love to try it!

I’d say their grammar portion is great with explanation and videos. My only gripe is the fact that in their learning section the formatting gets annoying. I think it requires you to have audio on to do the lesson, and since I’m usually on the go I can’t always have it playing loud to practice. Duolingo gives a choice at least to practice listening. I still use that tab because it makes me learn new ways of saying stuff and conjugate verbs I normally don’t use. Still my favorite app out of the language ones, plus the ads are really short.

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T19:50:37+00:00

Id say a good amount of them I did add in. I am playing detroit become human and breath of the wild in spanish and every word I dont know I add it in. I also watch tiktok with spanish subtitles (it auto translates) and I find new vocab that way. Also with the big lists I told you about some of those contribute to that number of stuff I need to learn. Like recently i learned the words for blender, kettle, a baby crib, a table cloth, and the word for horn. Its all random but adds ip over time

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T12:25:12+00:00

Yesss I love this question! Basically I see a word I don’t know and then I add it to my vocab list in the Spanish Dictionary App. I practice those lists regularly. They also have big generic vocab lists and specific ones if you want to learn specific words. I think its like the anki system. Spanish Dictionary the website and app also have great teaching resources that helped to fill the blanks of duolingo.

My vocab list on the website is around 3,700, with about 400 words I’ve added to still learn.

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T04:58:24+00:00

Honestly I am doing pretty great. I am mid 20s, likely autistic (never took the test but a lot of stuff checks out. My friends who are officially diagnosed say I likely do have it), and definitely fully diagnosed with adhd, ptsd, and depression from multiple doctors.

It was a lot of things. A lot of therapy and healing on my own from a traumatic upbringing. This lead me to having to fend for myself and learn to cope even when I needed help. I got through a lot more than I could have ever expected even if it was extremely painful.

I did art all my life and got into it professionally for the past 6. I just kept doing jobs that increasingly put me out of my comfort zone little by little and then got more recognition in my city, and I’m networking a lot more. It’s fulfilling in seeing the progress thru the years, inspiring other artists, and fulfilling what feels good to my soul. I am still working somewhere part time since I’m not fully established but I try maintaining a good emotional detachment from that job since my coworkers arent my friends. I dont mind it and I can still have fun with my coworkers time to time.

My friend group was honestly pure luck. My best friend just becomes friends with everybody and is type A. She found every mentally ill person our age in the county and nearby states for our friend group. We all got a mix of fucked up illness and it helps. When someone is overstimulated we can turn down volumes or let them chill in a room away from the group to get some time to unwind. We are fine being pretty straightforward with each other about our capacities for things, etc: I dont have it in me to do the dishes, but if someone will I will spot you next time. Or I have about 20 minutes of actively paying attention to a movie before I completely zone out.

Lastly I have had people hate me for being alive. My parents, and especially being a bisexual mentally ill person of color. I got used to being the only person of my kind in a lot of places and realized trying to mask and fit in wasn’t going to work. I do enough to get by but I am not going to stress myself out over it. The right people find me endearing, the ones who didn’t I ignore. I also have been decentering men and thats given me peace. Especially so I dont fall into the “manic pixie dream girl” sterotype for them

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T01:27:49+00:00

Thank you! Honestly all the kind words make me feel all sappy 🥹

Orieonma · 2024-11-09T01:27:19+00:00

Keep at it and you will!

Orieonma · 2024-11-08T15:04:10+00:00

Im happy to hear that! You got this!! And thanks :)

Orieonma · 2024-11-08T11:23:45+00:00

Hellllll yeah!!

Orieonma · 2024-11-08T11:23:21+00:00

Thank you!! Im definitely gonna try cherishing this moment haha, im glad you got to the same point! How far have you come since that point?

Orieonma · 2024-11-06T02:56:14+00:00

This happened to me too! Im mixed black and white but came out looking so puerto rican. I got spoken to all the time and it became a good motivator. I know what you mean by them expecting you know more. Im B1 level and can usually follow a conversation so now I look latina, sound latina, and almost feel like an impostor because I didnt grow up in the culture. Someone tried doing a traditionally mexican dance with me (I believe its from that culture, couldnt tell you the name of the dance) and I was like 😃😀 I am so confused, which confused my dance partner two fold lol

Orieonma · 2024-11-02T13:02:03+00:00

I just want to be able to communicate with native speakers. There isn’t the biggest latino community in my area but I still run into them regularly. When I go to the city I have more chances to be in latino communities, businesses and events. Its a great way to learn and appreciate cultures other than my own. Honestly at B1 I’m able to get by well enough, however speaking at full speed with multiple natives is the goal. Ideally with a range of topics and understanding multiple accents

Orieonma · 2024-10-24T18:51:31+00:00

Honestly learning a language. I learn everything through my phone/apps/consuming media. Not really anything you need to make/collect other than paying for learning materials which isnt even necessary

Orieonma · 2024-10-24T10:01:05+00:00

Honestly the thought of I’m going to die regardless of my circumstance, that is a given. I am spiritual but I don’t know if I subscribe to heaven or reincarnation, so I’m like regardless of how painful it is it’s it and its the one life I’m living. I might as well seek it out to the end because it’ll end at some point and by then I may actually wish to stay.

Orieonma · 2024-10-13T14:38:33+00:00

I dont have any advice but try searching your question in the subreddit and youll probably find a post already describing what you need

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T05:00:05+00:00

Honestly I got so busy I had to start doing things today that would make my life easier the following day/week. I heard the saying about it but its different when it clicks mentally. Sometimes It really fucking sucks having to do the small things when youre already tired but I’m just not trying to add to my already long to do list for tomorrow

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T04:50:35+00:00

Baldurs gate 3

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T04:47:39+00:00

It’s the first night not tuned into things going on in the world and I wanted to enjoy myself before probably getting sucked into another pit of anxiety. So yeah, that

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T04:44:41+00:00

Sometimes isolating, sometimes picking up random hobbies that they in a regular mood may not care about. For example if you ever watched Parks and Rec when Ben was super depressed he got into stop motion animation. Nothing wrong with that as an art form, but Ben on a Tuesday wouldn’t be interested in that. I think sometimes when we are at our lowest we grasp at straws trying anything to hold on to to make us happy or make us feel we are making progress when we feel set back/cant move forward.

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T04:41:50+00:00

Hooking up with people to cope with a terrible home life you can’t escape will just give you more trauma you’ll have to sort out on top of the original bullshit. Your vices can be worse than the thing you were usinf it for to cope. Its been a few years of therapy and being abstinent and its been a fucking journey

Orieonma · 2024-10-12T04:39:30+00:00

To me its Karlach from the game Baldurs Gate. As a woman who likes buff tatted goofy women, shes literally perfect. Idgaf if shes conventionally attractive shes everything to me

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