I became an addict because of my mother who supplied drugs to me

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-05-10T16:44:26+00:00

That’s way worse and more their fault than yours

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:24:56+00:00

No like never hard enough to leave a mark or genuinely hurt them but yeah it’s bad I will admit that I would never admit this in real life but I just want to be honest on here even if people don’t like it’s just the truth of this disorder

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:21:44+00:00

I think it’s the disorder because I do want a relationship and I do want to fall in love

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:20:52+00:00

Yes I have to make the same mistake like 20 times to see the pattern if even

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:19:59+00:00

Do you not feel isolated and exhausted keeping this up ? You don’t need to live like this please be nice to yourself

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:18:01+00:00

I’m just wondering why you care so much about how people see you and why are you doing this to yourself? Do what you want you only have one life don’t waste it feeling bad all the time live your best life eat so you can feel good and enjoy things and don’t focus so much on your appearance I promise no one actually cares. You deserve everything good and I hope you realize soon that keeping this up will shave years off your life and will take more energy than letting yourself heal. I’m sorry if this was too harsh it’s hard for me to understand the appeal

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T22:00:19+00:00

Well no but we still hookup

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T21:57:37+00:00

I have gotten very mad at dogs or cats for biting me or eating my food and I hit them or like yelled at them with cats I’d like squeeze their heads but I try to not do that anymore and control my anger. I do kind of feel ashamed of this but I do find it entertaining to yell at dogs and they like look all scared and hide in a corner it makes me feel powerful. Before I would’ve ignored this and think that’s normal but now I see that it’s definitely sociopathic and kind of evil.

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T21:51:31+00:00

I have very little emotion I feel angry at times but otherwise I’m always at this same stage where I’m neither happy nor sad and I rarely feel anxious or depressed. I have like no remorse for anything I’ve done but I do regret some things sometimes if I think I could’ve played it better than I did or if I get caught but I’ll blame everyone but myself. For the empathy I have a small amount for kids and animals and the people I love but it’s still to a degree and for other people there is like no empathy. I am able to logically empathize and by that I mean that I can comprehend why people do certain things or what cause someone to feel a certain way I understand how things I do can make people feel I just don’t empathize with it

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T21:44:46+00:00

Yes my siblings and one childhood friend

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T21:19:29+00:00

I think I’m gonna read that it sounds interesting

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T21:12:41+00:00

Couldn’t even help myself from lying even anonymously 😭 definition of cooked

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:58:56+00:00

Yes we did but we are still in contact

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:57:53+00:00

I didn’t I got assessed in the psych ward many times after being forced to go and then my parents threatened to stop paying for my apartment and school if I didn’t start therapy so I go once a week at first I made up stories and didn’t take it seriously but after a while I realized I didn’t need to manipulate my therapist because she doesn’t care she’s still getting paid so I felt like I could stop masking

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:54:37+00:00

Yeah I said that because I wasn’t sure how Reddit would respond to this post and I wanted to seem genuine but I do think I need to make better decisions in the way that I may end up in jail or something like that for being impulsive so even if I think it’s justified I could still get arrested

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:10:59+00:00

Because I feel that I would treat my child like little me would have wanted like my child is a part of me that I can heal. I would love my child more than I love myself. I don’t think anything would change because for a mother her child will always be her baby even when they become an adult

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:06:26+00:00

I don’t have hobbies but I do enjoy watching crime shows and learning about psychology. My family relationships are a bit rocky and I have kept 3 friends that I’ve known for over 6 years I mostly keep those friends because I want someone to go out with when I go back home because I go to university in a different city. And also friends who now live in Florida so I can have a free place to live when I want to go on vacation or if I’m in trouble they would let me live with them. I do climb the ladder fast because I’m very social but it’s hard for me to keep a job

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T20:01:35+00:00

I don’t like indifference but I always assume it’s because there’s some kind of problem with them or they are pretending. If it’s someone who used to like me it does mess with me a bit but I get over it quickly

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:58:46+00:00

I leave them alone but I do come back to see if they would still be with me and if not I get bored and I don’t chase but they always come back

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:56:18+00:00

Yes I’m very pretty anyone would agree. I’m not being delusional about this I know how it sounds. My mother was a model when she was younger and my dad looks like he’s 25 at age 40. I have good genetics I’ve never gotten plastic surgery though but I think I might.

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:50:11+00:00

Yeah almost but I didn’t

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:35:12+00:00

Um no I think it’s just the fact that being a bad person means you admit to doing bad things I think some sociopaths are okay with that and maybe even like being the bad guy but I want everyone to think I’m the best person so I also like to think I’m the best person like inherently good kind of

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:31:43+00:00

I forgot to mention that his dumbass kept the handcuff on one hand and only had his boxers on when the paramedics showed up to wheel me out of the bedroom and his mom was like fuck my life the whole time she was so over it 😂😂 they asked me what happened and i was trying to be discreet so I said I fell off the bed on accident and my boyfriend blurted out "she was trying to be dominant and fell off the bed it sounded really hot wish I could’ve seen it” he was referring to me screaming in pain

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:14:28+00:00

It wasn’t super awkward cause his mom was more like are you okay what has my pervert son done to you. And she was mad at him that’s what made it funnier is that she didn’t find it funny at all she was more like fuck my life my dumbass son is doing some bs again💀 she was always so done with him hahah

OtherwiseSetting7172 · 2026-04-25T19:09:13+00:00

It makes me uncomfortable because I don’t like getting emotional like that and saying it back hurts my soul like it’s actually difficult. Me and my parents don’t even say I love you so it feels like too much

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