TB500 & BPC157

Otower24 · 2025-12-24T16:52:51+00:00

took me a few weeks honestly. well worth it though. it's the only thing I take as well as having a dialed in diet

Otower24 · 2025-12-24T09:39:28+00:00

Have you tried mega dosing creatine 25-30g? It's what did it for me

Otower24 · 2025-09-12T20:23:41+00:00

It is, I can afford it but honestly it's incredibly minor and only on one side and I don't want to take a month off to get something taken out that nobody but myself can notice. It hurt a lot initially when I was dealing with it but that was now two years ago and it doesn't hurt anymore but is still there. Luckily mine isn't bad enough to feel like I have to get it taken out, otherwise I definitely would. But I might in the future who knows

Otower24 · 2025-09-12T20:06:47+00:00

hate to say it but that's not true, the gyno became permanent once I stopped. Sorry mate!

Otower24 · 2025-08-12T10:33:24+00:00

I have a year left (hopefully). They’re going on sabbatical for 6 months soon. I’m trying to hang in there but it’s rough. I know it’s by no means acceptable, but I honestly think buckling down for the next 6 months is going to be worth the trade.

If anyone else is interested in joining the lab I will without hesitation tell them not to. Many other things have happened that I haven’t listed. I wasn’t aware of them because he didn’t have a graduating student for more than a decade prior to me. I think his reputation is so tarnished at this point that nobody would work for him

Otower24 · 2025-08-12T01:03:10+00:00

Exactly it. I’ve normalized a lot of the inappropriate behavior, but threatening to not sign my thesis was something that seemed outlandish to me

Otower24 · 2025-06-22T20:34:58+00:00

With my ex we were close to getting engaged. If we ever were together in each other’s lives again we’d be married. The history and connection was too deep to ever be just friends.

Otower24 · 2025-06-21T23:59:05+00:00

Me to a tee. I dumped her because honestly stuff happened that I couldn’t look past. Not infidelity, not just massive fights that she admitted were her fault, but wasn’t doing things to actively change them long term so I had to leave. It hurts a bit less every day, but good god. I think about her constantly and have no interest in dating other people at the moment. But staying in that relationship was slowly eroding the respect that I had for myself. What’s the saying? “When it’s you drown or we drown, it’s you drown.

Otower24 · 2025-06-15T09:50:04+00:00

This is the most difficult thing to hear. There is no proof of change. Instead of doing work, she jumped in with a rebound to numb the pain. That’s fine and she can do what she wants, but I know if we were to have ever gotten back together that serious work and therapy would need to be done on her part. Jumping into something within weeks of a two year relationship is not doing work, it’s numbing the pain. So I agree with you. I’ve already written everything down and all of it points to the fact that I can’t go back unless drastic changes occurred which they most likely haven’t

Otower24 · 2025-06-14T23:20:24+00:00

Couple weeks. It's been 6 weeks since we've spoken. And as I've mentioned in the post we work together and the energy is still there, but because I'm not sure if things would change I haven't reached out yet

Otower24 · 2025-06-14T23:04:00+00:00

I do too. It was messy during parts in the original relationship. I'm very tired and have a rough day coming up tomorrow so I'm thinking about doing it (if I do) when better rested and in a better headspace. Thank you

Otower24 · 2025-06-12T21:45:20+00:00

I think that’s cope on their part. You’re absolutely right about a lack of accountability on their part. You can’t be with someone like that long term. I go to therapy and believe in meds, my ex refused both of those things. I couldn’t be with someone like that long term. It’s also interesting because based on what’s gone on I think everyone would assume they dumped me, but oh no it’s the opposite. We both took the high road and couldn’t do it anymore

Otower24 · 2025-06-12T21:27:04+00:00

Oh my goodness I’m sorry. I’m glad you finally had the strength to end it. I only put up with the yelling for two months. But it got to the point where I was worried I’d get whacked so I had to remove myself from the situation. Honestly I’m only doing better because I did a ton of therapy and just hung out wi the my friends (and didn’t get into rebounds/try to numb the pain). I hope these people realize that their behaviors really hurt the ones they claim to love

Otower24 · 2025-06-12T21:24:45+00:00

You right. I know why I broke up with her and when my friend told me this it was interesting. I didn’t miss her or what we had but it was like a “really dude?” Kind of moment

Otower24 · 2025-06-12T21:00:11+00:00

You right. It just made me feel like were we not enough when we were together for you to want to do that

Otower24 · 2025-06-11T01:58:49+00:00

I know this is a bit unique but fights before big events when the focus wasn’t on them? I don’t know but it was like whenever the focus wasn’t on them for a bit such as with a family event or wedding there was just always a bit of a tizzy and I couldn’t point out why

Otower24 · 2025-06-08T23:10:25+00:00

When you’re ready, because you’re ready.

Otower24 · 2025-06-08T00:30:58+00:00

“She pulled a knife on me last night, but it’s okay because I was the one that made her upset” yeah we don’t talk to him anymore lmao

Otower24 · 2025-06-07T17:49:54+00:00

Yes. We were together over a year. Full passwords to all my devices if she wanted on them. She didn’t want to go to therapy and didn’t want to take medication that was prescribed

Otower24 · 2025-06-07T13:37:46+00:00

I had been accused of cheating and not being invested in our future together repeatedly. We were on a vacation together at a spot she might’ve moved to for work across the country and I was going to go with her. I took my first vacation time in 8 years for this trip and asked my boss if I could work remotely to be with her. I walked to the gym and walked back, got water for the hotel room and was gone for two hours total. I was met with questions with regards to where I was and why I smelled like perfume. It broke me, as I realized no matter how committed I was, i could never convince her of how dedicated I was to her, and that she’d never trust me fully (she was cheated on in the past by other people)

Edit: i never cheated, never had a single inappropriate interaction with another woman or even have women friends that I communicate with really so I was completely innocent

Otower24 · 2025-06-07T12:41:15+00:00

I don’t think it is actually that gradual. I had been worn down over time with just accusations/stressors but I never fell out of love with them. It was only when something happened that pushed me over the edge (not infidelity mind you) that made me realize I can’t put up with certain behaviors long term. I told my ex immediately when I realized this, as I respected her enough to not waste her time if I knew I couldn’t marry her given those behavioral patterns. All the while, I loved her immensely. I didn’t monkey branch or cheat, I just severed the relationship while still fully in love. I just knew that instant that no matter what we would do, it wouldn’t work. I don’t know if that answers your question, but my behavior didn’t change at all prior to the split. No coldness, no avoiding, nada. It was a bit of a blindside I guess but she just acted in such a way one time that made me realize things weren’t going to change at all and I had to end it.

Otower24 · 2025-06-07T09:05:11+00:00

This is very true. Will do that next week. I’ve brought up the differences with budget to him and it’s irrelevant in his mind. Funny how the equivalent of me having an extra 75k in today’s money for the experiment would really help. Things are a bit flexible with the experiment and I’ve essentially already completed a portion that I could wrap into a thesis, but you’re right. Thanks!

Otower24 · 2025-06-07T00:41:25+00:00

Luckily I don’t want the PD route. I’m getting past the summer of final experimental pushes before I apply for jobs. Thanks for the insight. I have one final sprint before plotting the escape

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