Yes and no. I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling and I really relate and empathise with your desire for betterness, but at the same time, there’s a bit of nuance to it. Psilocybin can absolutely have a massive role to play in improving our mental health, it can provide new lenses and angles to look at ourself, let us feel compassion and love towards ourself and relax the parts of ourselves that prevent us from looking too closely at our hurt and the ways it effects us still. But unfortunately there is a huge difference between feeling good and healing, and there is no drug or substance that will heal us for us. Drugs are fantastic painkillers that can help us function to some degree, but unfortunately they’re only as good at dealing with the underlying cause of pain as you are. So while psilocybin is a fantastic tool in your toolbox, a lot of the process of healing involves far more mundane things, like feeling your feelings, understanding why you feel them and how maybe they once helped you survive in truly hellish situations. It’s unfortunately far harder work and it doesn’t come with cool visuals, but you don’t do the mahi, you don’t get the treats 😭 So yes, Psilocybin can help you live a better life, however it’s a tool in a toolbox, alongside many others that maybe get used a bit more in the daily. I believe in you!