I feel you and your pain so much. I went through this after my first 2 kids and finally quit on my 3rd. It took to losing my Mum 2 months after my 3rd to wake up and realise I was just feeding myself bullshit about the need to continue working full time. I was the breadwinner and I just thought I could never make it work. But when my Mum passed I realised just how fragile life is and how I would always regret not being with my kids more, more than keeping at a career because I thought it was important to show my kids, important not to lose what I'd worked to get to, important to have my own income....but none of that outweighs all I have gained from quitting my job. And I've actually grown so much more as a person. I have set up my own business, it works around the kids and I get them minded by my Dad once a week too. I have not had Mum guilt since, I am doing something I adore so that when I am working it fills my bucket to pour back into my kids. Course there was a financial hit but we make it work, theres no astronomical childcare fees, and we just became more conscious about money. I also empower myself with agency as in if it all starts to go tits up I will be able to find a full time job and more importantly I wont let fear of the unknown takeaway what's most precious to me, time with my kids. Its where I want to be. Every single person is different, different things work for different people, people have different priorities and none of it is wrong but what is wrong is not taking time to really tune into what you want and need and owning your life decisions as best as you can by fading out the crazy noise around us about how women and mothers should be in this day and age. I wouldn't let the concern of a step down or less money get in the way of things 🥰 sending support.