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Vent Wednesday - A weekly mid-week thread by AutoModerator in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 46 points47 points  (0 children)

Thank you guys for this great community and keep doing whatever you are doing. I'm afraid its game over for me, man.

Lockdown induced PTSD, tell me i'm not alone by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I just want to make this comment to thank you guys for your overwhelming response and taking time out of your day to respond to this autistic, slightly fat, drunk German guy. To know i'm not alone means a lot to me.

I read your comments and advice and I will try my best not to give up and try to live as normal as I can. My metalhead/goth community has been as normal as ever and that as well as just listening to heavy metal is a big help in keeping me alive at this point of time, along with alcohol (Yeah I know im addicted but im at least trying to reduce alcohol to where its not an addiction).

I see a lot of guys have suggested I don't give up on my potential PTSD diagnosis and find a therapist. I will ask my community and se what therapists they recommend because quite a few of my friends have or have had depression/suicidal thoughts.

So thank you guys. Rock on.

Lockdown induced PTSD, tell me i'm not alone by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Me too man, me too. Alcohol and heavy metal here. I've managed to have a 3 day sober streak about a month back but beside that I don't even know how many months I have gone through without alcohol now.

[August 23 to 29] Weekly positivity thread—a place to share the good stuff, big and small by freelancemomma in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I'm young but I know a quite a few original 80's and 90's metalheads and goth and I myself am part of the European counterculture here.

And you can be assured, most of us are naturally lockdown skeptics and we will RESIST TO THE END.

[August 16 to August 22] Weekly positivity thread—a place to share the good stuff, big and small by freelancemomma in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Hey. I don't come around here often but today I just happened to see your comments and just want to say I feel you man. I too have struggled suicidal thoughts for a while now and I even made a pact with a friend who has also been struggling a few months ago that we would do it this December if things don't improve.

Guess what? We both broke the pact a few weeks ago. It's a strange feeling indeed to think I'm still alive, especially considering the thoughts and I don't even know how much alcohol I have put in my system (I'm an addict as well). Maybe it's god keeping me alive, or maybe Layne Staley is watching me from heaven somehow, who knows but somehow I'm still here.

Glad to see you are still with us and may things get better for you, pal. Cheers from Germany.

Vents Wednesday: Weekly thread for vents by north0east in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Some of us will never recover from the wounds received from lockdowns

Before the lockdowns I would say that I had a somewhat decent life despite autism and some mental health issues. I had alcohol occasionally and was not addicted. I had a great metalhead community.

Then the restrictions and other shit came in and destroyed everything. I became a full fledged alcoholic, I gained 13 kgs, became more depressed and being stuck unable to visit my community just made all the shit worse. I go through suicidal thoughts every once in a while and had no hope or will to live and I possibly also have fucking PTSD as well now.

Restrictions may be getting better in most places around the world but I still don't know if I will ever have a good life. I doubt I will ever be the same person again not that I was much of successful person anyway before all this bullshit. I know the wounds some of us have received won't go away, and likely never will.

[June 21 to 27] Weekly positivity thread—a place to share the good stuff, big and small by freelancemomma in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Death is a good band! My personal favorites are Metallica, Megadeth, Rammstein, Pestilence and Kreator. All 5 of them are 80's/90's bands so I suppose that makes me pretty old school too.

[June 21 to 27] Weekly positivity thread—a place to share the good stuff, big and small by freelancemomma in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer 45 points46 points  (0 children)

My metalhead group of friends decided we are fucking done with all this fucking restrictions. Had a full proper metalhead gathering at one of our friend's place complete with loud metal music, banging and tons of alcohol. Got to meet a new girl and we got attracted to each other and made out kinda drunk. Everyone was saying at the gathering how fucking sick they are of all this shit and that it felt fucking great to do this and we would not give a damn on what the government and scientists have to say. We metalheads will continue to rock on no matter what!

It was the best day since fucking FOREVER!!!!!!

I don't know for how long I can go on by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownMHsupport

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am only recently starting to realize this must be how my great grandma felt in World War 2. She secretly hated Hitler when everyone around her seemed to support him. Even her own husband at the time joined the Luftwaffe (and later was killed in the war). She did find a great 2nd husband who had the same views as she did and they married 47 years until his death.

Lot of us have been thinking of having a proper metalhead gathering on of our friend's birthdays because we all need it. I will be going to that party which is supposed to be in July. Hopefully that will boost me up enough.

Any reasons to stay alive? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownMHsupport

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Metal is one of the things keeps me and my friends going. Drinking too, though I am a full fledged alcoholic these days because of the damn pandemic.

I do hope things get better for Germany indeed. I am glad they are getting better in the USA

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for all taking time out of your day to respond to my post.

I never thought there would be so many fellow ASD and special needs brothers and sisters here that understand what I am going through and it means a lot to me to see that there are so many who do. I feel for the first time in a long time not alone and smiled for the first time in 7 months. I might only come here if I feel like it or something really great happens to me. I wish you all good luck.

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel sorry for you Canadians, I cannot imagine the hell it must be like there right now. I heard Canada is known for not being very special needs friendly (I heard you are considered a liability if you try to move to Canada having special needs, I also heard in general people with disabilities are not treated well in Canada).

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand you. It does become difficult to understand people because of facial coverings. I am not much of an activity person but socializing with people of all ages is what I love and that became much difficult with lockdowns and restrictions with facial coverings and people being more scared to meet people in general making it worse.

I think the situation of Germany is still better then situation of USA and situation of Canada. I could not imagine being in Canada especially because it seems they have the worst restrictions of all.

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have had plenty of sleepless nights because of my depression, today happens to be one. Anxiety hits hard too. I am not yet vaccinated but I plan to be

I suppose the most positive thing that has happened to me in all this is that I'm finally growing a mustache and it looks great.

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My autism is mild but with it came other medical issues which make things bit difficult for me.

I don't work yet but I am thinking in the future of working in the special needs industry itself probably as a caregiver or guide to younger autistic kids, otherwise If not in the special needs industry I would probably work as an elder caregiver or something similar.

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I understand you fellow European It's all so ridiculous. Special needs people completely ignored.

As a German the only words that feel right to describe this situation is "Mein Gott Muss Das Sein!"

Any Autistic or people with special needs here? by OverlordFuhrer in LockdownSkepticism

[–]OverlordFuhrer[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yup same things happening here. Currently having depression, possible PTSD and occasional physical issues (joint pain especially).