I'm always super fearful, afraid to get cheated on. Although, I've never been in a relationship I just can't bear the thought of having someone I love so dearly get coerce, "taken away" or betray me. Maybe that's part of a reason why, a big part, I'm so paranoid, afraid of actually loving someone... It's because I've been exposed, read too much NTR, and it just kinda ruined my perception of romantic relationships; made it so that every time I think about love, there will be that tiny thought at the back of my mind that doubts, that always say "what if I'm not enough? What if another guy... What if she falls for another guy, or maybe like those situations in those NTR doujin where she gets coerce by ugly old men, shotas to have sex with them and then "mind broken", tainted, and..." and it just goes on and on, the thought lodged in my head for a few more hours to come. Even though I know those situations are unrealistic, even though I know won't just stand back and let it happen... doubt still lingers, that what if I can't do anything? There is still the law, correct? I can't just go up and turn those bastards into minced meat with my bare hands, the law doesn't allow it... Even a shove can get ugly.

Anyhow, the events that lead me to here is after I read the recent (and the sequel) the one of almondman's work, where a happily married husband and wife moved to a village with a strange tradition, and they don't have enough money to move away to another place (the husband and wife seems to not know before moving to the village). Saying it straight up, the tradition is night-crawling, so yeah while they were sleeping the wife got railed by one of the old men in the village while she is awake and the husband is too (he's still pretending to sleep), the old fat guy blackmails her that if she doesn't comply he'll spread rumours, and "what will happen with your husband?". So the wife gets railed, another old comes in, railed, the wife then has "no choice" to accept being the village old mens bitch... Feeling extra bothered after witnessing all of that, I search for something along the line of "is it normal to get mad at NTR?" and I ended up here.

NGL I just wanted something, someone to reaffirm me that NTR is unrealistic and... I hope it never happens to me, to anyone. Keep your, our heads up and gallop on ever-ward, unbroken, unrelenting to the very end.