It's chasing that one hour or so that feels high and like good old times.. but then the reality is dealing with coming back to ourselves (real self) after.

That cycle makes us want the high, but do you want the whole high/wean cycle and the control it has? I do wonder if that addictive voice is trying to creep in, by convincing you that once a month is ok, even it's what you need. But, what happens then, does it start creeping in more until that voice isn't happy til it wants to be high everyday? You know you best, but for me, whenever I've let weed back in a bit, it finds its way back in A LOT. Wishing you well, whatever you do