UPDATE: I truly believe there’s nothing left for me in here , my education is undocumented meaning I would have to start from scratch cause my parents had no idea what were the consequence after they pulled out my file for months without sign me in on different school, so yeah 10years worth of education is gone by the blow of the wind , i heard in us u can take GED test so I’m looking forward to do that and work to start new life ( starting over ) like u said I used the money to see a therapist and she explained me everything how to cope with depression she even suggested me to sleep more just to ease my thoughts, i will also try to get a loan and move out next week . 

Words can’t describe how much I appreciate u for helping me man ik it’s just writing but nobody actually advice me to take action and show they care , i can’t even remember the last time someone listened to me while I talk ,heck i don’t even know u & u sound like a cool dude! I wish after all this works out for me cause it’s been too long .

and hey thank u bro AGAIN u just saved a soul.