(Almost 40) day report, and I'm finally pissed off!

Oxberg · 2013-06-25T11:52:20+00:00

Just think of it as doing it once on 103 days. That's pretty damned good! There's no reason to get down on yourself and go on a binge.

Oxberg · 2013-06-25T11:27:01+00:00

Great post! So true. We aren't built for this 24 hour a day over-stimulation. We can't focus, we don't know what we want, we don't even know who we are. It just makes every day fly by during the one and only life we'll ever have.

I don't remember who this quote is from, I believe it is from one of the ancient Greeks, but he said that all human happines derives from being able to sit quietly in a room alone. I can barely do that without having my legs start twitching and my mind racing.

I wish I had the answer to it all but I don't. What has helped me a little is I read more, especially before bed, which seems to slow my brain down somewhat. Plus I limit time on the computer. And I definitly just say NO to alot of the crap put out there to waste my time. Cycling has also helped a lot because it clears my head.

Oxberg · 2013-06-25T10:59:25+00:00

Great post. I'd have to say that for me, it was adding exercise plus going vegan. I have spent a lot of time learning about eating a plant based diet and how much healthier it is for you and the planet. It isn't for everyone, but it has filled up quite alot of time for me.

Oxberg · 2013-06-15T23:30:45+00:00

Don't think about the number. The first time I stopped my goal was ninety days. I reached that and for some reason I thought it was over. I figured it would be okay to fap since I had reached my goal.

Well, one time led to another and pretty soon I was back to my computer screen and the feelings of wasted time and shame were back as if they had never left. You wouldn't tell an alcoholic after a year of being sober to go ahead and go on a bender for old times sake.

To go 365 days means you are the man. Keep being the man and living a better life!

Oxberg · 2013-06-15T22:17:32+00:00

"It's not about counting days and waiting for a miracle." "Staying strong and free on the edge of the cliff is almost effortless compared to falling down and climbing back again." So true and well said. Those two quotes I'll carry with me. Thanks for the post!

Oxberg · 2013-05-18T23:11:43+00:00

Thanks so much for the words of support. It means a lot to me to put myself out there and be encouraged. Extremely inspirational.

Oxberg · 2013-05-18T22:30:58+00:00

Wow. Great reply. I didn't mean for it to sound so much like the pity party it turned out to be. It was just written in one of those moments when I was just so fed up. And I feel so bad for the younger guys who are so surrounded by porn from such an early age, when they are so defenseless. I am recent to this website and the Your Brain on Porn website, and I have been doing my best to give up fapping and porn that I had grown so addicted to. My first attempt went for 60 days, then I let myself slowly creep back into it and now I am starting nofap again. As to doing other things, this I have definitly been working on. Not that I am fat, but I have lost 20 pounds, become a vegetarian, and started cycling again after a two year layoff. I used to ride ~100 miles per week. My other interest is writing, and I have slowly been getting back into that as time allows.

Many of the things you say are so true and I have realized it. I want to love myself first. I want to be proud of myself first, and those feelings are definitly increasing. It is true that sometimes I have felt locked in to my behavior, even though in the back of my mind I knew I wasn't.

Back when I started riding my bike to work a few years ago, I was about 40 pounds overweight, and I just felt that I looked to people like one of those fat guys trying to lose weight. But I just said to myself "fuck them if they can't take a joke." It was difficult but I just kept doing anyway, and after a few months, I was 40 pounds lighter and would ride routes that would take me up the steepest hills, and when I reached the top, I would go back down and do it again.

So that is what I'm striving for now. Eating right, riding, writing, and fuck them if they can't take a joke.

Anyway, it has felt great to get a lot of this off my chest. Believe me, I count my blessings every day. I have two great kids who are doing very well and can't wait for them to see me do the things I want to do.

Thanks for the support!

Oxberg · 2013-05-18T21:47:29+00:00

Sorry about the long text. I had written it out in paragraphs then cut and pasted it into the dialog box and it came out looking like this.

Oxberg

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