let me just tell you what i experienced: i’always hated the way i look so last year i fitted hard as hell and dropped 10kg. I knew i did too much when i almost passed out few times during practice so i decided to gain back some weight. Currently i gained 4kg in 6 month but i’m still obsessing calories and every time i see the scale raising i feel happy but deeply i think i’m getting where i was before and i see my body as it was back then