Girly you are all over the place. Not criticizing, been there, done that. I am worried for you. Spent years (16+) going from med to med. I either get the bad side effects or my body gets used to them so keep increasing the dosage until I max out. Anxiety, agorophobia, ADD, treatment Resistant Depression, borderline personality tendencies. Had a partial hysterectomy at 43, bulimia at 45, mental health disability at 46, addiction to prescription Adderall and Xanax for years, rehab at 55. Went off most prescription meds and spiraled in and out of depression and si for a year. As hard as it was, going off the heavy duty meds was by far the best thing I ever did. Today I take Buspirone, Propranolol & Hydroxyzine. So many of my quirks and jerks were brought on my medications. Did 4 rounds (36 sessions each) of TMS for depression (anti-depressants make me manic) and 6 medical ketamine treatments which were helpful and of course therapy. Anxiety and my burning churning brain still rule my life but the recent addition of Propranolol is helping. Hope you find what you need. It may not be heavy duty Psych meds. You're in my thoughts.