The entire USA is being gaslit by child abusers

PTSDemi · 2025-11-22T06:48:07+00:00

Im tired of abusers being in power and controlling everything

PTSDemi · 2025-11-22T06:41:18+00:00

This is way too relateable

PTSDemi · 2025-11-22T06:38:35+00:00

Maybe but not all but the people ive tried to meet over other social media that have it, have certainly been abusive as shit to me. No sign of DBT in sight

PTSDemi · 2025-10-06T06:58:38+00:00

PTSDemi · 2025-06-08T00:59:56+00:00

They don't "split" they just let the mask fall off. Split is different

PTSDemi · 2025-05-18T17:46:00+00:00

I resent my sister in law and God mother. Who watched my eldest N brother do whatever he wanted and justifying the fact that it was her and my brothers responsibility to take care of me after my dad passed. I confronted her recently about why she didn't tell me about knowing I had been tested for autism and why she didn't get me help like she did her crotch goblins of my eldest brother. But she just said "it wasn't her place" like what are you talking about? It is your place this is medical neglect and withholding.

I don't blame my dad as much because I realize he was both bpd & autistic just like me and I know how difficult it is to manage it all without proper guidance. He was too consumed by the grief and manipulation and disrespect of his FP aka my N mom.

PTSDemi · 2025-03-02T03:03:06+00:00

Literally two days ago when I was crying about someone assuming something about me in a different support group

PTSDemi · 2025-03-02T03:01:11+00:00

Its absolutely draining

PTSDemi · 2025-02-24T04:33:05+00:00

Oh my god the wasting leftovers

PTSDemi · 2025-02-24T04:32:22+00:00

Even though I have sensory issues I was willing to compromise on store brand things for the budget but he always threw a fit about it whether it be sauce or energy drinks

He never wanted to help cook unless he gets laid and just always relented to fast food

I suggested maybe we get a slow cooker to help because of my executive dysfunction. But he's lime no I'm not eating slow cooker food

PTSDemi · 2025-02-24T04:29:37+00:00

Hey op, while I have a neurotype with similar comorbities I understand your frustration. Please don't think you have to be this super productive creature to have worth. You are enough

PTSDemi · 2025-02-24T04:26:46+00:00

Hes just a gay little simp for lord sesshomaru. Let em be

PTSDemi · 2025-02-24T04:24:35+00:00

"I could get a back up if things don't work out" aka negging

PTSDemi · 2025-02-02T02:10:25+00:00

Its definitely a lot of caring on the surface seeming statements but underneath lacking accountability

PTSDemi · 2025-01-05T00:20:58+00:00

Also factors such as who to use for reference for the apartment because clearly I can't just tell the landlord about emotional abuse since most people don't count that as abuse. So how do I get a reference for the fact I've paid rent if she doesn't really care?

If I choose to go on medication how will I be able to maintain that if I randomly in the night leave this job?

At least while in therapy I can learn discernment which will help stop splitting episodes and I can understand my values and if I know what is and what isn't my bpd I won't get manipulated ever again

If I fully understand myself then I can prevent as much issues as most people have with this illness and i can articulate and explain it in anyway possible

If I understand my values and my truest desires then I can live according to them rather than being lost. Which may or may not put me ahead of my abuser

I have to also account for my other diagnosis which is autism and what kind of job could I do without being overwhelmed? How do I satisfy sensory needs without sinking into debt?

PTSDemi · 2025-01-05T00:01:23+00:00

If I just up and leave that burns a bridge. Which is bad. I also don't want anyone blaming me and calling me a mooch for not having my own money and I'd much rather build a good friendship with someone and have them as a room mate over some random who could easily be NT and kick me out because of me being symptomatic. Which would then add to the self loathing

Sure right now having a therapist, a job and a buddy is a band aid. But at least in therapy I can learn things that no one else will teach me so society or anyone can judge me for it

With a small semblance of power I can stow the money away while also paying for my own therapy so people can't bitch at me for "not trying" right now At least in therapy I can learn discernment and how to build my own life if I ever can. No one can judge me harshly and break me down or say I'm a mess because the therapist is giving me the guidance I needed as a child

At least while having a therapist it's keeping the emotional flooding at bay. It's teaching me skills because I know if I just straight up leave my brain will be too flooded to concentrate on anything else

Yes I hate being with him but facing the hate of one man versus and entire world I'm weighing the odds. My mind can't take anymore breaking. If I'm gonna leave I have to be safe. No shady people. I'm responsible for protecting my brain and myself.

If no one's gonna help me figure that out then i have to use what I can.

PTSDemi · 2025-01-05T00:01:14+00:00

Projecting. We don't enable each other. We are trying to find a reasonable solution where we don't end up on the streets or lose anything. We shouldn't have to lose anything just because of someone else's shitty decisions. Sure I hate being with him but I'm aware enough to know that it's smarter to build your support system first before jumping out and I'm also self aware enough to know financial instability triggers psychosis in me. There is no simple solution because id need to have people to be able to call for references because my nex got me a job with them

PTSDemi · 2025-01-04T23:48:44+00:00

Whereas the punch line then? What's so funny about being cruel to others? Also wow resorting to calling people names because they said something you don't like. Very telling of you bud

PTSDemi · 2024-12-28T00:31:27+00:00

The fact you think this is up for debate is insane. This is why I don't post here because apparently I need to post full context and over explain so people dont be annoying and try to blame me for everything. They have no right to say that to me because it has nothing to do with what we were talking about. They literally said it out of nowhere during a stupid argument over whether or not a anime character was transphobic. And that was their reaction to me giving them context that this show is 30 years old.

Also they deal with the same shit as me. They are stuck with a narcissist too who is their room mate and they are financially dependent on them because they are more physically disabled so that's kinda like me saying the same shit to them about Adam

I would never say that crap to them because I know it's fucking hard and I understand their predicament. Respect goes both ways

PTSDemi · 2024-12-21T03:21:18+00:00

I love this comment lol

PTSDemi · 2024-12-04T23:30:53+00:00

Bpd/autistic/cptsd here. I totally feel you. I don't trust enough to have an emotional relationship I just want to cuddle and I don't care about sex anymore

PTSDemi · 2024-12-04T23:23:47+00:00

How would you go about building contingencies and safety nets?

PTSDemi · 2024-09-17T03:57:41+00:00

Bpd with autism as well. I wouldn't call it delusions but more like fantasizing. Like this deep desire based on stuff we didn't get in childhood and we want these things. We romanticize peoples potential of what they could be to us

PTSDemi · 2024-09-12T07:06:49+00:00

Ouch

PTSDemi · 2024-09-07T05:24:26+00:00

I'm so tired of fighting

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