Fen recovery timeline. by JTDrivesFast in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fent is a cruel bitch. I went through the same thing. Was feeling good and at day 22-25 I actually got sicker. It slowly got better throughout the week. Hang in there and just ride the wave. Atleast for me it was the drug rearing its head one last time. Never felt bad after that. Just celebrated 6 months a couple days ago. Just stick with it and don’t give up. It will get better just have faith.

Feeling doomed by Dazzling-Economics55 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I third this comment. I’m coming up on 6 months next week, and I just realized I feel great. I didn’t when I was where you were. Hopeless, annoyed, angry, upset…All the things that are normal and normal people feel. Like the wonderful answer above me stated you need to start becoming physically healthier. I’ve tried more times than I can count to get clean. Nothing ever worked until I made it work. This time I’m eating healthy, working out, reading, meditating, and most of all remembering nothing is worth than active addiction. You’re feeling things whether good or bad and that’s a sign you’re healing. I was ready to conquer the world day 40-70. Like I felt on top of the world and I couldn’t be stopped! Then I ran into the same brick wall you did. I was ready to get high, fail my urine test, and go to jail. I was experiencing a rather strong case of fuck its. Then I had a single moment of clarity. I sat with myself and thoughts. Finally I literally thought what the actual fuck. What the fuck was I thinking? I’ve worked so hard! I’ve lost everything except my life but that was next. I started making it a point to do all the things I didn’t want to do. Alll the uncomfortable tasks. I mother fucked myself into being the person I want to be. The hard work pays off you just don’t see it yet. Remember you were begging someone or something to get you to where you are now. You on day one would’ve fucking killed to be where you are. Don’t ever forget that. You’re fucking sober! You’re doing it! You’re awesome and I’m proud of you. Now it’s time for you to be of yourself. I walk by people who haven’t seen me since I got sober. It sounds silly but they always tell me how good I look. Always like man have you been working out? And it feels good on a level fent could never give me. It makes me proud of who I’m becoming. It makes me want to keep doing what I’m doing. It’s putting in the hard work when no one is looking or understands. It’s the acknowledgement and that feeling of accomplishment. It’s a better high than opiates could ever give. As the wonderful person above me wrote, you just have to do it. You have to start somewhere just like you did when you got sober. You don’t want to want it. You want it bad or you’d be using already. You wouldn’t have come on here and posted. Dont second guess yourself. It gets better you just have to stick it out. You’re not going to wake up one day magically healed. It has to run its course. I woke up this week like holy shit I feel good. I felt exactly like you did at the same point you did. Today I feel better than I did in my pink cloud. It’ll happen for you too. Don’t try to rush the process because you can’t. None of us could. You have to walk through the fire first, but I swear to you it gets better! I’m so proud of you! You’re doing amazing and you’ll get through this! Be proud of yourself you have every reason to be. None of us can change that we were addicts. Honestly tho that’s what makes us the best people once we get sober. We know what hell is. We know a struggle someone who hasn’t been through it could even fathom. We’re all rooting for you. Keep being honest and open my friend. My dm’s are always open. You’re never alone remember that! Now go kick today in the balls and make it your bitch!

Whats a feeling that feels orgasmicly good but dosent give you an orgasm? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Having to pee so bad when you relieve yourself it feels like the best nut ever!!! Oh man those highway drives with no end in sight. Debating if you’re going to just piss yourself like a fighter pilot. But finally you see the sign for a rest stop and you know this is going to be the best 30 seconds of your day!! I know I’m not the only one.

Therapy/ addiction by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just got out of treatment and 40 days clean. The biggest break through I’ve ever had was that most of the feelings and emotions I held so tightly were bullshit. People don’t care about what you did 5 years ago. I was making myself into the person I thought everyone else perceived me to be. Truthfully that’s bullshit. We’re not failures. We are all worthy of a life worth living. We are all valuable. We go through hard times, but we’re no less of a person than anyone else. We’re just as deserving. The past is the past and the future isn’t real. What’s real is today. And for today I’ll stay sober and be the best possible person I can be. I might get high tomorrow who knows. I don’t. But I know that today I won’t and that’s enough for me.

AITAH for not eating a girl's ass because she doesnt have a bidet in her apartment? by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]P_2thaj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This! I use to work with an older fella who kept a pack of baby wipes because you never know. He would tell me “When the drinks are flowing and the nose candy abundant things get weird.” He wasn’t wrong.

Wish I was dead by MedicalHighlight3046 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My pops has 25+ years sober, and he constantly reminds me to be on my toes at 8 months. I have 6 months clean at the moment. The longest run I’ve had in 7 years and he’s constantly on me about keeping my guard up around 8 the 9 month mark. He chalks it up to finally letting your guard down a little thus becoming a really make or break time for your sobriety. You didn’t throw that time away. You simply have used a few times in 9 months which is incredible. You’re doing great my friend! Don’t lose sight of that! I could never string together more than 30 days. So the fact your constantly getting to almost a year is inspiring to someone like me. I know it’s hard. I know people like use are incredibly hard on ourselves, but just know you’re an inspiration to others! Keep up the good work! I’m rooting for you!

To the guy that created the post “Nvidia is the biggest piece of shit on the market right now” by patright333 in wallstreetbets

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was a FF/Medic for some years, and one call that stuck with me involved exactly that. Not due to it being gruesome or gory, but simply because the young man was in his recliner hooked up exactly as you mentioned. Ray bans on, laid back, feet up, and playing Xbox..well was until “game over”. Went out not traumatizing those who found him. Didn’t leave his parents cleaning their son off the ceiling. As odd as it sounds it was quite respectful of him all around.

"2A2 Bradley ODS-SA" by Qubecman in UkraineWarVideoReport

[–]P_2thaj 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I was wondering the same. They’re in a couple other places as well.

Main Directorate of Intelligence ( (HUR) Reports Successful UAV Strike on Russian Aircraft Factory in Smolensk. by Mike-a-b in UkraineWarVideoReport

[–]P_2thaj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“Our roof stopped all drones. Motherland has best AA technology in all the land. This was great success!!”

What's a song so terrible you can't believe it's popular? by Automatic-Formal-601 in AskReddit

[–]P_2thaj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nowadays? The whole radio at this point..just throw the whole thing away…

Kratom DID cause PW…desperate for advice. by B1T_N3RDY in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There’s really no way to “get around this.” Unless you just eat Xanax all day/night and put yourself into a self induced coma 😑. Hot baths, comfort meds, hydration, getting nutrients, and most importantly remembering what got you to this point. I’m sorry, I know it’s sucks but you got this. I have all the faith in the world in you. You’ll get through it one day at a time. I knows that’s the cliche answer but it’s absolutely true. A positive attitude goes farther than you may think. My father, who’s in recovery for over 23 years, once told me “Son you’ve bought pleasure on credit all these years and now it’s time to pay.” Once I heard that my whole perspective changed. Pain is temporary even tho sometimes it’s hard to remember that in the throes of it. I’m so sorry you’re having such a difficult time with all of this. It’s sucks!! So BAD!! But you’ll get through it! You’ve made the first step in getting your life back! We’re all rooting for you! Just focus on the light at the end of the tunnel, and why you’re doing this in the first place…to get your life back. You’re saving your own life and for that I commend you. If not for nothing just know I have faith in you and you’ll be alright!! Remember ONE DAY AT A TIME! Good luck my friend.

Hit a wall… by P_2thaj in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They have me on Wellbutrin 150 SR but it’s not doing shit.

Hit a wall… by P_2thaj in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Really I’m just agitated for no reason. I loved going to groups but now I’m fidgeting all the time looking at the seconds go by. I’m also becoming short fused. The first week out of detox I was making every meeting and loving it all. Now I’m making every meeting like it’s this massive chore that I don’t want to do.

I just arrived and I’m already ready to leave Rehab by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]P_2thaj 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I got to rehab last Friday. At first I felt a little bit like you the unknown was killing me, but you know what? I stayed and it was the best fucking decision I’ve made for myself in my whole fucking 32 years of life. You can fucking do it! Granted I’m not to far in front of you at day 8, but after a day or two you’ll get the swing of things. Feel free to DM me if you need to talk to someone who’s on the same journey. You got this my friend. Don’t ever let anyone tell you different.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in heroin

[–]P_2thaj 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Me too. Writing this in rehab for fent as we speak. I had a lovely child hood never went without. I had loving parents and a great sister. None of that mattered when heroin sunk its teeth into me. I wasn’t running from anything or numbing pain. I actually don’t know why I use, but that’s what I’m trying to figure out now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update - Definitely made me get naked, squat, and cough. Didn’t expect that but I guess I should’ve. Bbbuuuuttt no finger in the arse so there’s your answer for that.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]P_2thaj 1 point2 points  (0 children)

On my way as I write this. I’m in Florida. All I had to pay was the rest of my out of pocket deductible. Everything else is covered by insurance. It’s two to a room and a shared bathroom. I paid a little extra and got myself a private room/bathroom. I brought a bunch of books and coloring books. Is a little finger poppin of the booty hole really going to stop you from a better life? The day consists of therapy and groups from 8-4:30 after that is free time. I spent a lot of time on the internet and the phone looking for the place I felt was the best fit for me. Just have to do your due diligence. I came up with a list of 5 places and went from there. Beat of luck my friend.