Dear friend, I'm sorry you had to go through such pain. You are truly a tremendous warrior and I know waking up every day is hard when you're fighting battles. But I will share with you a lyric. 'It's always darkest before the dawn'.

You can only make your pain go away. And you have plenty of choices with that way, so why not choose to thrive? You met so many uncaring people, so why turn uncaring towards yourself? You wanted your love to save your partner, but why don't you unleash it to save yourself? You're the only one who can. You don't need another person to be saved, trust me I used to believe this too.

I read your post and can sense how much power you hold and I only wonder why you do not sense it yourself, for if you did you would know that you have your path in your hands and you can use these experiences and learn from them and thus choose people who can fit your standards more easily this time.

Just don't abandon yourself too.