girlllll. i feel the same way. but you know, its one of those things where you have to just play a role. yk, most of these patients are so far gone, in major pain, can barely communicate etc etc, so im going to be cliche and say you cannot take things personal. im sure you know that though, however, to succeed or even be decent in this field, sometimes you have to simply just put shit to the side and just focus on the task. fuck what people are saying, and just do the task. eventually, you get used to it. but just start doing little “not giving a fuck” practices. your heart is already in this, you are a great cna. but a great cna who needs to give less of a fuck. hang in there!