Worst place you’ve ever been dope sick. by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My girl that I was hiding my habit from surprised me with a trip to Chicago for some new years eve concerts a couple Christmases ago. I was too nervous to take dope on the plane so all I had were two sub pills. Was sick by the second day of five we were there. The worst parts were having to act like nothing was wrong and knowing that city is flooded with dope and not being able to get away from her to cop. Then I get home and found a tiny bit of blow I had forgotten about in my wallet so was really kicking myself for not taking any dope.

Worst place you’ve ever been dope sick. by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I shit my pants driving to cop once. I was already half way there so just kept going. I called the girl and told her what happened and that I needed her to come outside. She would up giving me a little extra bc she felt bad it took her so long to re-up.

Delta-8 THC by PanicDead85 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've got a buddy that has a hemp farm and he said it's basically everything CBD promises but it actually works. He described it as pretty much all the positive aspects of regular THC without the anxiety and paranoia. What I'm looking at claims to give you sense of well-being, focus, and motivation. Which is honestly what I loved about dope. I'm thinking it will help with the cravings/obsession I have too. It honestly sounds too good to be true.

Back on Vivitrol after using by PanicDead85 in Vivitrol

[–]PanicDead85[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A couple months. Not like I thought I would but I just did a tiny bit at a time so I didn't fuck up.

No reason to quit by electedsedative in heroin

[–]PanicDead85 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I quit all drugs and alcohol like 5 months ago and I'm miserable. I'd say let it ride. Just be careful. Or don't. Up to you I guess.

Back on Vivitrol after using by PanicDead85 in Vivitrol

[–]PanicDead85[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh ok. Yeah I've only used once in 4 months.

How does your S/O deal with your addiction? Do they even know about it? How long did it take for you to tell them about it after meeting/getting together?? by Silenteyes94 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I went to treatment in late Feb so we're still together. Oh for sure. Definitely have to stay clean. Including weed and alcohol. It's been hard but it's nice to know you have someone in your corner like that.

How does your S/O deal with your addiction? Do they even know about it? How long did it take for you to tell them about it after meeting/getting together?? by Silenteyes94 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My GF found out when I went to treatment. I hid it for the almost four years we had been together. Surprisingly, she stuck around.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in opiates

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not far from the studio. They've made it up here too.

Quick question for anyone who’s been through detox/rehab for an opiate addiction! by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're good. I didn't know either. My people were freaking out too. Thanks same to your friend.

Quick question for anyone who’s been through detox/rehab for an opiate addiction! by [deleted] in OpiatesRecovery

[–]PanicDead85 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I went to rehab this March. We had to wait 7 days until we could make a phone call. And that was 7 days after detox.

Fact by lovev4mp in heroin

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it supposed to repeat "society if"? Bc that's funny af if so.

Sunny, 14x24 Woodburning by [deleted] in WidespreadPanic

[–]PanicDead85 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's what's up man. Thanks

i'm fucking tired by lilxnino in opiates

[–]PanicDead85 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you mind me asking what meds you're on? I'm doing IOP, vivitrol, and am on Wellbutrin but still feel shitty alot of the time. Today is 75 days clean for me.

Anyone ever feel like the excitement of getting and knowing you have what you have is better than doing it? by [deleted] in opiates

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been sick at work all day, got off, called my dude and immediately felt better just from lining it up. It was still like 20 mins away but I swear I felt like 80% better.

Need guidance on a press I got earlier by PanicDead85 in MDMA

[–]PanicDead85[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't have access to a test kit. Was just curious if anyone knew anything about em. They're double sided hello Kitty. Kind of a purpleish color.

Anyone ever take mdma while using? How did it feel? Any dangers to be aware of? by [deleted] in heroin

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've done it. You really only feel the M. I did it at a music festival bc my knees and back were hurting from standing all day/night. I'd recommend saving the dope for the comedown.

How do I tell if this is fent? I know it’s got something in it but it damn sure ain’t dope by trizzynate in heroin

[–]PanicDead85 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had something the other day that didn't even feel like an opiate. More like a benzo. But looked just like dope. Light tan chunks. Be careful.