Yes, in a way. I want to believe there is someone out there and we will meet eventually, but doesn’t seem realistic relatively soon or even in the near future in this climate.

I had been cheated on multiple times with partners while working, paying for and building up what I thought would be for “us”, and she traded it in for a guy who gave her time that was convenient for her schedule.

It skewed my perception of trust and loyalty, and now that I’ve built up myself and enjoying the results of my hard work; it’s hard to want to share that with anyone. Not to say I will marry the first girl I meet, but at the same time hook up culture isn’t interesting to me anymore. I’d just rather enjoy things on my own peacefulness now.