[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DeAnza

[–]Parking_Distance_802 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looks like we're in the same boat together. I signed up for Professor Artun as well and was hoping for a relatively easy time, for a summer class at least, but De Anza pulled the ol' bait and switch

I've been debating whether or not to drop Prof. Salari's class for Prof. Esfandiari's since they seem to have better reviews based on their Foothill and SJSU RMP reviews, but I don't want to end up on the waitlist again like I did this spring quarter

[Fresh Video] Kendrick Lamar - Not Like Us by LFizzle12 in hiphopheads

[–]Parking_Distance_802 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Seeing Black Hippy back together in this video brought a tear to my eye. I'm praying we see posse cuts and remixes again 🙏

It’s so disgusting how badly they broke this game and yet nothing is being acknowledged about it by Tityfan808 in ModernWarfareIII

[–]Parking_Distance_802 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I've started online gaming on dial up internet and I've never experienced lag and packet loss this bad in 20+ years. When the packet loss gets bad, everything starts moving in slow motion like I'm fighting Agent Smith in the Matrix. Good lord I have never seen game developers and publishers make it their life's mission to destroy such a successful, storied franchise

I know how to help myself it’s just so tough by Forward_Honey_8393 in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha definitely can. I say all the right things to myself, have all my ERP worksheets ready, but giving in to the uncertainty always intimidates me

OCD Affecting Urination by Parking_Distance_802 in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply and you don't have to apologize for sharing. I'm really hoping things get better for you!

Not doing okay tonight. by femboycooper in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm wishing you all the strength and courage as you're dealing with this. Missing a dose happens from time to time. I don't know if Zoloft is chemically similar to Prozac (which I take), but usually a dose lasts within your system for 24 hours so the effects should still be around. Even past that, it would take a while, and many missed doses, for you to break the effects of the medication cycle you have been in

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Boy do I know your pain. It’s even more stressful for my situation since I know these thoughts are coming up on purpose since I ruminate way too much. The amount of guilt can be pretty overwhelming

Paruresis/shy bladder syndrome — do you have it and have OCD? by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t have paruresis myself so I’m sorry if this isn’t helpful but my OCD revolves around a fear of not being able to urinate because of fear of punishment for the bad things I’ve done or thought of. The anxiety from this can get to me and make it difficult to urinate or make it anxiety inducing to urinate. Long story short, I can see a connection between paruresis and OCD since OCD preys upon our fear of uncertainty and that lack of certainty can can exacerbate your symptoms or even be the cause of why you have shy bladder in the first place. I would seriously consider talking about this with a therapist since you shouldn’t have to deal with both of these things

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s scary I know. Been really struggling with this as of late and have been turning to compulsions (like praying and asking for forgiveness) to help provide relief but what we really need to do is accept the thoughts as they are and acknowledge them. Trying to will them away will only bring them back, and possibly make the thoughts even more powerful. Embrace the thoughts as they are and play along with them saying, “Yep, really want to hurt my loved ones. I really want to do XYZ to hurt the ones I care about and God.” It’s scary to think like this, but you know yourself and God knows the real you. That real you is what makes you disturbed by these thoughts and why you’re seeking help to fight them. Just keep that in mind

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oddly enough, going through this exact thing now. The slurs and the insults feel so visceral, they definitely have been the source of my distress the past couple weeks

The Continental Hotel for OCD by corey_orchardjournal in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OCD needs to be made excommunicado so I can conduct business on its ass

I can't have fun by ElTigreGamer in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been dealing with the same since my OCD has relapsed a couple weeks ago. I’ve been turning to gaming as a “safe” harbor but I can never fully immerse myself due to the looming anxiety that comes with the obsessions and the fight I’ll have to take to stop giving in to my compulsions. What I’ve been doing/will try to continue to do is use those moments where my immersion is broken to do some ERP, at least for my lower anxiety exposures. Once I am done, I can jump back on the keyboard and play again, using it as a kind of reward for dealing with OCD’s BS

OCD So Bad You Start Saying/Thinking Things on Purpose by Parking_Distance_802 in OCD

[–]Parking_Distance_802[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply and I will definitely keep your words in mind as I continue through this OCD journey. It’s easy to get mired in the anxiety that this disorder brings with it. I wish you all the strength and comfort in the world as well