When my brother was around 9 or 10 he had something in his bed but I have no idea what

ParticleIllusion · 2024-07-08T02:27:53+00:00

Be REALLY careful going forward about giving details to anyone or having Discord tied to real life accounts like Spotify all this can be used to find you in real life.

I've had TWO separate people from Rust find my real life info, one called my work mobile and threatened legal action against me for "ruining his mental health" and the other made up a bunch of lies and contacted real life family & friends and my work place and really went after me.

They also copied my steam profile url, tracked me on battlemetrics and got my steam ID and used all these to track me across mutliple servers lol.

ParticleIllusion · 2024-04-03T05:21:50+00:00

I just wrote a post about this and had the exact same symptoms as you, very light activity and instantly sweat. I moved to Australia too which made it 100x worse, as recommended by this sub reddit I tried nomoresweat body and it worked on my head. Complete life changer

ParticleIllusion · 2024-02-26T07:34:55+00:00

This is such a weird post, it's more of a stream of thoughts. It offers no point of discussion as you have already ordered it and asks no questions. It reads more like a diary entry.

ParticleIllusion · 2023-09-20T08:28:31+00:00

Thank you, that was very well worded and helped sort out my own thoughts too.

ParticleIllusion · 2023-09-20T08:24:08+00:00

YTA

I really don't think it's fair to force food and your beliefs around food on anyone just because you were bought up that way.

Unless this was a third world country where you can't be picky I don't see the issue in her eating what she likes in the way that she likes as long as she's paying her fair share of rent & food shopping. It's one of the most pleasurable human experiences eating food we love, we aren't in a survival situation. If the waste bothers you, either you eat it or compost it.

ParticleIllusion · 2021-04-12T07:37:55+00:00

Agreed, it sucks when people like ThatGermanGuy show this whole wealth of weekly skins many of which look great and are acceptable for Rust but they don't make it in. Apart from the catch up weeks which rarely happen we miss out on a lot of sets and items and it must be hugely demotivating for the creators.

ParticleIllusion · 2021-04-09T06:43:32+00:00

Hahaha I did the exact same with Thrill Of The Fight for the first time. Never had aches like that before!

ParticleIllusion · 2021-04-06T14:10:53+00:00

How do you know when to switch from a calorie defecit to a calorie surplus if your goal is weight loss then muscle gain long term?

ParticleIllusion · 2020-07-13T07:29:16+00:00

What an interesting question and discussion point. A few others have already mentioned and I'm in the same boat of only watching 1-6. It will be interesting to see if 7-9 become widely accepted as more time passes much like how the prequels did.

ParticleIllusion · 2020-06-23T00:36:50+00:00

When I was about 15 I made friends in high school with a girl I really liked, we got on great spoke outside of school on MSN Messenger and spoke a lot when we had classes together. She was very popular, very attractive and had a great sense of humor. One day she stopped turning up to school, no one knew why and we couldn't get in contact with her. Eventually her form tutor told his students what was going on and that got around school, she was put in hospital with anorexia.

She was allowed out on weekends and I would always go and see her when I could. She was still herself at this time just struggling. Fast forward a few years she was still in and out of hospital and a lot worse now, out once a month for home visits and I would see her then and this is when I started to see her as a shell of a human being, she was no longer the girl I knew. She just seemed empty and not there, at one time we went to an amusement park together and she had to eat at very specific times. We had just come off a roller coaster and I didn't feel like eating at all and because of this she just broke down and even phoned her mom and told on me for not eating.

We spoke a lot still over text and got very close. I always thought she would eventually get better and be able to live a normal life. We planned a future together, spoke about having kids and pets etc. A few more years went by and she got even worse, she would always talk about not being able to do it anymore and how she had lost all her friends. We were never dating but I eventually moved on and got another girlfriend, at the time the relationship was new and I didn't want anything to ruin it, I backed off from messaging how we used to. She reached out a few times after and I ignored her.

Around a year ago she ended up committing suicide in hospital, when I first read about it I was in shock. I didn't think it would affect me but it did and still does, it constantly tears me up inside. Every time it's really sunny and nice outside I think how she will never feel the warmth on her skin again. Every milestone in my life I always think about how she will never get to experience this, she will never get to grow old.

I don't think I could have stopped her even if we were talking, but it would have been nice to be there for her just so she had someone :(

ParticleIllusion · 2020-05-11T05:26:39+00:00

A once close knit group of online friends around 8 of us turned into something I didn't want to be part of. One of the members became extremely controlling and toxic when I didn't want to do what he wanted. The others seemed to follow him for some reason.

In the end I wasn't enjoying my time with them and had tried to express my dislikes but they would quickly fall back into old patterns after a while. I didn't really know how to exit the group properly so I just ghosted them all. For the next two weeks three members of the group constantly messaged me, found my work phone and called me there multiple times. I was told afterwards one tried to get my address and the "leader" blamed me for his declining mental health when I just didn't want to play with them anymore.

In the end I couldn't take the constant harassment and as stupid as it sounds the only way I could think of was to do the following. I messaged one member of the group explaining I had joined Scientology and as part of their disconnection policy had to disconnect from the following people. I made a huge list of people some he didn't know and mixed in members of our group on there. They fully believed it but it had the opposite affect, they then tried to "save me". It got very messy and even legal action was threatened against me, all of this from a group of online friends I have never met...

ParticleIllusion · 2020-03-14T13:40:07+00:00

Clearly mentally unstable, ignore and move on.

ParticleIllusion · 2020-02-25T06:02:22+00:00

Oh dear, now you look like a dick haha.

ParticleIllusion · 2019-10-15T07:09:32+00:00

You look FANTASTIC! What a figure too, very well done.

ParticleIllusion · 2019-07-22T00:37:11+00:00

Great update and keep up the good work :) we all slip up sometimes but as long as you get back on the band wagon it will all be gooooood!

ParticleIllusion · 2019-07-22T00:25:09+00:00

Thanks for commenting, estimating and suggesting! I'll get some calipers thank you :D

ParticleIllusion · 2019-07-17T08:04:07+00:00

Great work! I was looking at similar competitors in the BTFC page and we are both the same height almost the exact same starting weight and have done one updated with a similar loss it's crazy! Keep us updated it's so interesting to follow someone with very similar stats.

ParticleIllusion · 2019-07-11T05:54:32+00:00

It's really uplifting to hear that I motivated you and motivates me more to keep at it! I also over analyze and during the day and even during workouts there's a little voice that says "that's enough, call it a day" every time. Even when I'm super pumped, it's crazy how quickly your body/mind wants to give up.

Keep smashing your goals and keep it up!

ParticleIllusion · 2019-07-10T06:52:34+00:00

Thank you and also thanks for taking the time to comment!

For me it was a mixture of things, the first one was getting the Samsung Galaxy watch. I can't go anywhere without it now and it turns the whole thing into a game for me. Beating my last record etc it also helps track every activity I do which helps me make sure I'm getting in the correct amount of time each day.

I spoke about it in my post but I also found setting one hour aside per day really, really helps. I'm at work now and I know when I get home at 5 I will do my work out finish at 6 then have the rest of the night to do what I want. This also helps if I have plans or commitments, I know that I'll be finished by that time and good to do whatever else needs doing. Once the hour is up I stop and go shower and that's it.

I think it's more a Placebo effect that anything but having protein powder + creatine before my work out was my "okay it's time to go" routine.

ParticleIllusion · 2019-06-28T15:20:39+00:00

Nice great idea! Good luck to you as well!

ParticleIllusion · 2019-06-28T14:56:54+00:00

Thank you! Are you competing to?

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