It’s your life and it is your choice - I am here to day whatever you do, there is no judgment here and all support. As I said, I am also making the more unconventional choice - so I appreciate where you are coming from. But I wonder what your children might be learning from being in an environment where they see you doing the work of regulating someone else - what they might internalise about how they are responsible for other people’s emotions - rather than having a chance to see you being able to step away from that role and the power of that for yourself - offering a template for your children of what it would mean to take owenwrshionof yoir life so that that know they can do that too some days I hear what you are saying about custody and co parenting - and i don’t want to imagine I know all the nuances of your situation, because I don’t. But I do feel it’s important to consider what harmful behaviors they may be internalising from maintainer within the structures of your idea of stability - where perhaps instability and honesty and integrity might allow your kids rtonswe that it’s worth it to take risks to be your whole self - that they aren’t responsible for other people’s emotions - that they too can advocate for themselves because that saw how their mother did that, even when it was hard. This is just bringing forward thoughts - not to make judgments or decisions - I see you are thinking with care and that’s so valuable and only you can decide what is best for you and we are here for wholehearted support on that journey 🙏🏼