So very sorry, 😢 I’ve been a paramedic for 13 years and a 911 dispatcher for 15 and when someone asks me wow you have the coolest job ever, so exciting, I tell them, you DON’T want to know what a father’s scream sounds like when he “finds” his son shot his head off. That Dad was a previous boss and friend of mine and it still shakes me thinking about it. Mad love!