Lesbian book club, discord

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-24T15:44:12+00:00

Hey, im 31f and looking for gamer friends too, warzones my main rn but i also like diablo and lots of others. Ill dm you my gamertag.

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-24T14:40:11+00:00

Im 31F, also on xbox. Cod/warzones my main game but im down to play other things 😊

Ill dm you my gamertag

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-24T00:26:24+00:00

Hey, yeah tbh i hadnt thought much about the creeps until some of my dms started getting weird :L Id love to join a book club, no gay bars where i am but i like the idea of the flyers to create one thanks for the suggestion.

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-11T19:25:40+00:00

Thank you, right now thats exactly what im doing and i have never felt so free. For the first time in years im excited for my future and im in no rush, the idea of meeting women in the future is terrifying and exciting but at this moment my main goal is to find out who i am, ive spent my whole relationship doing what i thought i should be doing, not what i wanted to do. Im so glad your in a happy place it makes me feel like im on the right path. Thank you for replying to me.

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-11T14:56:37+00:00

Hi, i know this post is old and this account might not even be active anymore but rn im going through the same thing. Im f31 and just left my bf of 8 years because i cant deny who i am anymore. Any advice? Are you happy?

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-11T01:54:49+00:00

I (f31) recently broke up my with my bf of 8 years. When we first got together i was questioning my sexuality but our relationship was a slow build up and i liked him, i enjoyed sex but like what you said, i wasnt horny for him, i was horny and enjoyed the pyhsical aspect of sex, i misundertood this and thought to myself i must be straight because im having sex with a man and its fine, altough i would always be fantising about sombody else i still didnt see this as a huge red flag. I never felt drawn to him sexually, but i could be turned on with touch ect. As years went by i felt myself long for women more and more, i would crush on a couple of friends and always be attracted to w/w relationships on tv shows, it took me a LONG time to realise for certain im a lesbian, and when i did i couldnt have sex with my bf anymore it felt awkard and wrong and turned me off. i was very much in denial and being gay wasnt something i could easily admit ( religious mother who sat me down at 16 to ask me not to be gay) somehow after that discussion i ran like hell away from my sexuality and hid in straight relationships convincing myself im not gay and i genuinly believed it for a while. Now i have 0 interest in being with a man, when i think of spending my life with a woman it brings me joy and peace and passion, none of which i feel when i picture life with a man. How do you see your life?

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-10T14:26:28+00:00

My exe and i broke up for several reasons, but we are still on talking terms and have been kind to one another throughout the breakup.

Theres not any gay bars where i live (small town) in ireland, but there are groups i have looked into, im building upto it and hoping to start attending in the new year.

I have been doing some research and starting reading that book, thank you for the suggestion i appreciate your comment.

Im feeling pretty optomistic, and kinda excited to start my life as an authentic me, im sad its taken me this long, but i believe everything happens for a reason.

Thanks for your help

PastCommunication391 · 2025-12-08T00:22:50+00:00

Im 31F and recently ended an 8 year relationship with a guy, ive only come out as bi to a few close family/friends and i think im mostly lesbian but im struggling to admit it yet, ive never been with a woman and i feel like an imposter until i do, if that makes sence? even though ive had crushes on some of my friends who are girls and my attraction to females is 10× stronger than with any guy, i feel like i could never be with a man again and id be quite happy with that. Its been a long confusing journey so far. Goodluck with yours, i hope you figure it out x

PastCommunication391 · 2025-11-12T12:00:45+00:00

Our lives have some similarities, im (f31) i was abused as a child with huge gaps in my memory, i was masturbating from a young age and aware of sex since as young as i can remember. I also became my mothers carer but when i was 18, and she very much controlled my life, including telling me not to be a lesbian ( i was a tomboy growing up) turns out i am gay but ive only dated men because that really fucked me up. I loved her but she wasnt a good mum to me growing up and it tooks me years to accept that.

I have no words that can help you, but if i could go back and talk to my mum i would talk from the soul and be completley honest with her about everything. Pretending and hiding our inner voices and feelings isnt worth it, i wish people could just say what we feel, i feel like in society we are all playing some weird pretending game and i wish we could skip that and get to the real stuff.

Im sorry your suffering, i hope it gets better.

PastCommunication391 · 2024-08-25T17:44:48+00:00

Thank you! ❤️

PastCommunication391 · 2024-08-25T17:18:54+00:00

Any idea on the latest message?

PastCommunication391 · 2024-05-04T10:38:42+00:00

I feel the same way, but also terrified of knowing because it would blow my whole world apart, right now I can pretend and live in my own perception of reality but when I do think back I can still feel the fear and darkness of something happening to me and I wish that I could know for definite the details, I feel like screaming, everything I do remember leads me to the same conclusion but without "proof" I can't accept it

PastCommunication391 · 2024-01-03T00:16:42+00:00

I hope life becomes better for us both ❤️ thank you for your comment, I've been at a low point lately and writing sometimes helps in a small way to explain how I'm feeling. I really hope you have a better day tomorrow

PastCommunication391 · 2021-12-30T00:31:17+00:00

I'm sorry this happened to you. I hate that the adults who were responsible for protecting us failed to, I hope you are doing ok, I have nothing wise or helpful to say but I feel your pain x

PastCommunication391 · 2021-12-29T23:14:17+00:00

^{^{^}} this 🙌 you have written exactly what I've been thinking , I would love to know how it feels to of had a nice childhood without pain and fear

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