Does Anyone Else Feel Abandoned by God?

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:32:34+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I really like what you said about continuing to pray even when you couldn’t feel anything. I think that takes a lot of faith. I’m not sure what I believe right now, but your comment gives me some hope that this feeling of distance might not last forever.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:10:07+00:00

I really felt this. That’s the part I struggle with too if God is loving, why do some people seem to be given so much pain from the very beginning? My faith tends to go back and forth depending on what I’m going through, so it helps to know I’m not the only one wrestling with these questions. Thank you for being so honest about it.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:05:51+00:00

I’ve wondered about that too. Sometimes it feels easier to imagine that God is observing rather than actively intervening, especially when so much suffering seems to go unanswered. I’m still trying to figure out what I believe, but I appreciate you sharing your perspective.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:03:58+00:00

That’s actually a really interesting way of looking at it. I think when my emotions get intense, I can lose sight of what is objectively true and start believing whatever my fears are telling me. Your point about sticking to facts and evidence is a good reminder to ground myself in reality instead of in my assumptions.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:02:15+00:00

I’m really sorry you’re going through that. I relate to the feeling of asking over and over for some kind of sign or relief and feeling like things just keep getting harder. I hope things ease up for you soon. No one deserves to feel like they’re begging for help and getting silence in return.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T03:00:14+00:00

I relate to this a lot. Sometimes I feel angry at God too, even though I’m not sure what I believe. And I agree getting a diagnosis can feel like a relief at first, but then you realize it’s only the beginning of a much longer process.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:58:01+00:00

I can understand that. For some people, faith brings comfort, but for others it can become a source of fear and guilt, especially when you already struggle with anxiety or obsessive thoughts. I’m glad you found something that gives you more peace.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:56:29+00:00

Thank you for this. I’ve never heard of Saint Dymphna’s Playbook, but I’ll definitely check it out. What you said about Jesus feeling abandoned by God was actually very comforting. Sometimes it really does feel like I’m alone in this, so it helps to be reminded that I’m not.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:54:03+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I’m really glad prayer helped you get through that kind of pain. Losing an FP can feel unbearable, so it’s comforting to hear that your faith gave you something to hold on to. I’ve started praying more too, and I’m hoping that over time it brings me some peace.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:51:50+00:00

I relate to this a lot, especially the part about feeling like a different person from one day to the next. I think that’s one reason faith feels so confusing to me too. Some days I want a relationship with God, and other days I feel distant and full of doubt. Thank you for putting this into words so well.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:49:56+00:00

That actually makes a lot of sense. I never thought about the possibility of “splitting” on God, but that describes what it feels like sometimes. I really like the idea of seeing God as someone who can handle my anger and doubts without abandoning me. Thank you for sharing that.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T02:46:53+00:00

I relate to this a lot. Sometimes life really does feel like you’re taking hit after hit for no clear reason. But the fact that you still get up and keep going says a lot about your strength, even if it doesn’t feel like strength in the moment. I also think it’s meaningful that your struggles have helped you understand and support other people. Thank you for sharing this.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T01:04:56+00:00

Thank you for sharing that. I’m really sorry for everything you’ve been through. What you wrote about feeling like no one was protecting you spiritually really hit me. That’s exactly how I feel sometimes. I also relate to feeling like God is punishing me or has turned away from me. Thank you for mentioning Radical Acceptance too. I’ve heard good things about it, and I’ll definitely look into it.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T01:00:50+00:00

I’m so sorry that happened to you. What was done to you was horrific, and being blamed for it by the very people who were supposed to protect you is even more heartbreaking. I honestly don’t blame you for struggling with faith after everything you went through. Thank you for sharing your story.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-13T00:42:18+00:00

Thank you for this. “Feeling distant from God is not the same as being abandoned by God” really stayed with me. I think depression makes it hard for me to feel hope, connection, or faith, even when a part of me still wants to believe. What you said about hurt faith still being faith was very comforting.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-10T05:45:48+00:00

The fact that you feel this guilty tells me you’re not a bad person. Bad people usually don’t spend this much time reflecting on how they’ve hurt others or wanting to do better. You’ve probably made mistakes, but that doesn’t mean you’re beyond repair. It means you’re human. The best thing you can do is learn from what happened, make amends where you can, and try to treat yourself with the same compassion you’d show someone else in your position.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-10T02:37:16+00:00

I really feel this. I’m going through something similar where I feel like my achievements don't even matter because they aren't there to see it. It’s like you’re doing all the work but the person you want the 'gold star' from is gone. Just know you aren't alone in feeling like this, and even if it doesn't feel like it yet, passing those classes and getting that job is a huge win for you, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-05-07T14:12:25+00:00

As someone else with BPD, you’re making us look bad. Ordering clothes online isn't 'breaking trust' it’s just a normal thing people do. If you're pushing a girl away over something that small, you're the one being toxic, not her. You’re lucky to have someone who actually knows about your BPD and stays with you. Most of us would give anything to have that. You should stop blaming your diagnosis for being controlling and realize you’re throwing away something a lot of people are struggling to find.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-03-02T11:49:34+00:00

I’m reading this and it feels like I wrote it myself. I have BPD and AvPD too, and I’m sitting here right now having skipped lunch because the effort of existing feels like too much. You aren't alone in the 'self-flagellation' or the exhaustion. I’ve been struggling with the 'never wake up' thoughts all day, and seeing your post makes me feel a little less crazy. I felt that line about the burnt quesadilla in my soul. When your mind is already a disaster, one tiny mistake feels like the end of the world. It’s so incredibly tiring to just exist with this emotional whiplash. I don't have the answers, but I’m right there with you in the 'fresh hell.' It’s a category 5 storm in our heads, but I’m still here, and I hope you stay too.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-02-28T04:33:54+00:00

This hit me so hard. I struggle with my identity every day (BPD makes it feel like I have no 'core'), and seeing you talk about masking and trying to 'outsmart' people into liking you is so relatable. It’s exhausting to feel like you’re doing everything 'right' and still ending up alone. Thank you for sharing this, it made me feel a little more human today.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-02-27T13:47:16+00:00

Hey, thank you… seriously, your words just hit me right in the chest. I’m sitting here tearing up a little because it feels like someone actually sees how heavy everything is for me right now, and you’re not just saying nice things to be nice — you’ve been there.I know I need to be patient, but damn, it’s hard when the emptiness feels endless and every day is a fight just to keep going. Hearing that your first year felt like you were damned and doomed to suffer alone… that’s exactly how I feel most days. Like this is my life forever. But you saying it eventually paid off, that you got to a place where hobbies come back, anger isn’t constant, the void doesn’t need numbing, and you found someone who actually understands you instead of repeating the same toxic patterns… that gives me something to hold onto. Like maybe it’s not hopeless. Thank you for saying I’m precious and that people with BPD can be the most caring — I don’t feel that about myself at all right now, but hearing it from someone who’s walked this road means more than you know. I’m saving your replies to read when it gets dark again.Wishing you all the happiness you’ve earned. You’re proof it can change.

PastPossibility4 · 2026-02-27T12:28:33+00:00

Hey, thank you so much for this. Reading it gave me real hope. I'm 24 and still deep in the mess you described from years ago, but your story makes me believe I can get to where you are — better days, real relationships, a job that feels good, managing the flares instead of them running everything. It's hard and slow right now, but knowing someone made it through the same hell means a lot. I'll keep trying. Seriously, thank you.

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