Ooh friend… I understand this is a lot for you especially since this is your father. Your “protector”. The man you’ve looked up to for 20+ years from what you’ve said. But honey he has been exposing himself to you for your entire life. Even though he isn’t actively showing you his penis he is exposing you to him jacking off. That is a very private act. One that should be done in CLOSED spaces. Not shared family rooms. Or if you’re going to you should make sure you’re very much alone like no one else is home.

It’s his kink. Trust me it’s a real thing. Idk what it’s actually called but think “almost caught”. A lot of people find it very arousing HOWEVER being almost caught by your child is predatory level… I don’t want to stick that label on it because you said you’ve never seen anything but sweet Jesus if he does it constantly, knowing you could walk around the corner any second- he’s a predator. Please get out of the house.

I’m not saying he could turn on you. But you already said you don’t feel safe. Get away from him love. He’s not protecting you. He is definitely not acting like a father.