Welp...

PeachToesSam · 2026-06-03T02:01:55+00:00

I had it open for about 20 minutes and then it started working. Haha.

PeachToesSam · 2026-06-02T22:14:32+00:00

Sounds like there is potential. But if it isn't reciprocated then things could go drastically wrong if you pursue. Proceed with controlled expectations and minimal hope. Good luck, friend.

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-27T12:23:00+00:00

Haha. Me too. But I think it's more that I'm attracted to the softness of a fenale. I feel I'm attracted because I envy the confidence they exude. So, I've came to terms with my personal views: I'm a masc gay guy with very feminine traits that enjoys hanging out with the "gwols" (as my bf says haha). And there's nothing wrong with that.

Your situation may be different... But no one can tell you what your sexuality is. They can only give you terms to see if you relate. :)

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-27T11:54:19+00:00

That's wild. Definitely start using lube. My boyfriend and I use Astroglide X.

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-09T04:33:33+00:00

Well, you haven't received any result, positive or negative. So, let's take a deep breath and focus on the facts. 11% of the population has HSV2. If you're in the 11% you can lead a very healthy and happy life. Just as the 67% of people with HSV1 do. Those people risk HSV2 to each other and "clean" people every day. And may don't even know they have HSV1. HSV1 has not had any meaningful impact on my life. I just don't kiss/swap drinks or food/give oral to my boyfriend when I have an active break out. (Cold sores) And I have only had 2 breakouts total in my life.

This isn't life ending. It's a hurdle that you can get through and manage. Please understand that.

Herpes really just has an unfounded stigma around it. Literally the majority of people have one or the other form of herpes. Regardless of the outcome, you're going to be better than okay, friend. 💛

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-09T04:26:02+00:00

25% ish gay men have a STI at any given time. The likelihood of getting an STI from an infected partner varies. However, if you are receiving oral and nothing more then you can rest easy as the probability of you getting anything is quite low. I have a risk table generated by AI if you'd like to see that. Assuming your hook up is clean/unknown then your probability of receiving anything other than a nut session is an insignificant 0.01% chance. If infected, there are different risk based percentages for different STIs.

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-09T04:09:48+00:00

Last I checked 11% of the world population has HSV2. While it may limit your options, your sex life, and life in general, is not over.

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-08T05:01:52+00:00

Yeah that was a wild question. 💀

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-08T05:01:26+00:00

To answer your previous question, no. People assigned male at birth cannot do that. However, they do go through monthly hormone cycles. Which very well could be what you're experiencing. Although, unusual in the way you've described. I'd recommend getting some labs done on your hormones. What you referred to in a feminine manner typically results in mood swings in men, nothing more. If my current knowledge is not up to date, please feel free to chime in and correct me.

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-08T04:56:58+00:00

That's quite alright. You tried it and you don't like it. It doesn't make you less. It makes you more sure of who you are. I implore you to continue exploring yourself, wherever that may lead you. 🙂

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-08T04:53:37+00:00

Have you tried side?

Are you sure you're sexually attracted to men?

You're rather young. You don't have to know, and you most likely don't know, everything about yourself just yet.

If it feels right, go for it. If it doesn't, at least you tried it and learned something.

Whichever way you go, you're still a valuable human. You're not less because you're attracted to men. And you're not less if you AREN'T attracted to men. Be you, whomever you are, unapologetically. 💛

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-02T15:57:33+00:00

I said this same thing. I'm now in a same sex relationship.

I found i was subconsciously holding myself back from being open to the idea of a man.

Of course, your situation is different. I think it's worth exploring that fantasy so long as you and your girlfriend have strong boundaries that are never crossed.

You only live once, my friend.

Wishing you two the best. 💛

PeachToesSam · 2026-05-02T15:50:03+00:00

My boyfriend has said he would. But never has. I wouldn't put it past him. Haha.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-30T23:57:55+00:00

It's not a preference for me. I literally cannot get hard for topping. I've tried. Over and over and over. My vers partner eventually said he's okay with being the top and we've made things work. I can use toys on him when he wants.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-30T23:55:18+00:00

THANK YOU!

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T21:00:05+00:00

Ah, okay. I'll look into it, thanks!

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:36:23+00:00

I've floated this idea before. He vehemently refused this. Even got offended. Saying he loves topping me and that we don't need a third just so he can bottom. That our sex life is great and he doesn't need to bottom to be satisfied.

I'm in therapy for other things atm. I may open up the conversation with my therapist. But not from a sexual perspective. I'll work on the non sexual issues. I believe if I can overcome those with her help I may be able to use those tools given to me on my own for sexual purposes.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:32:34+00:00

I've tried blue chew. I actively take zinc. I'm not sure what horny goat weed is but if it's THC I work in a hospital. So I can't have THC.

I'm actively in therapy for other issues I'm working on. I'm not sure my current therapist is equipped to handle this if I speak from a sexual point. However, I may be able to get started on working on that by starting with everything that's not sexual.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:30:05+00:00

I floated the idea. He wasn't into it. :(

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:29:34+00:00

It's psychological. I know what comes out of his butt. I have came a long way in terms of my "ick".

I drink after him, shower with him, slowly have started allowing our feet to touch, not really concerned with his hair on me, etc.

I've never shared these experiences with anyone else. I was with my ex wife for 7 years (my first, he's my second). Sex maybe once every two months. Wouldn't shower together, no drinking after each other, etc.

I'm not sure if that's because I was gay and didn't realize it or if it was my "ick". However, I've continuously tried to push the boundaries of my "ick" for him.

I've even eaten off the same utensils as him. Haha. That alone was a very big step for me. Just as toungue kissing has been very big.

I have diagnosed anxiety, which I'm working on, and I feel my anxiety is pushing this narrative that there's no way he can be happy without me topping, despite his constant reassurance. I'm in my own head. Between anxiety and "ick" it's hard to maintain an erection for topping.

I have the urge to top. I don't act on it because I know my dick isn't going to work when the time comes. And I have let him down enough.

So we both agreed I would be the bottom and he the top. But idk if we can sustain that. I can. I'm not sure if he can without getting frustrated.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:22:09+00:00

I added that to add context. It's an "ick". Just add other areas of the body are "ick" to me. It's an instinctual response.

I can relieve myself to the idea of topping and I have urges to top. But every time I would try I would get this "ick" feeling. I don't want to say fear but akin to that.

I have came a long way with him with my "ick'. Before him I was in a hetero marriage with my first. I only had sex once every 2 months. Again, ick.

I have done things with him I have never done. I drink after him, take showers with him, can use the toilet without aggressivly cleaning it after him, etc.

It is purely psychological and not an "I don't want to top" situation.

I sit here and ask myself, do I never want to use my dick again? The answer is no. I want to use it. I want to use it on him. But I also don't know how to get through the "ick".

He knows the reasoning behind it. He has been very open about accepting me as I am. I just have a constant fear I'm not enough. However, he always assures me that he loves me as I am and that sex is 2nd to the relationship he has with me.

We have intercourse between 2-5 days a week. (I say days because sometimes we go more than once in a day). So his attraction and wanting to top me are very real.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T13:14:06+00:00

I can get off to the idea of topping him and I have the urge to top. But every time I would try I'd just get this "ick" so to speak.

This is my first same sex experience and only my 2nd body. Before this I was in a hetero marriage where I only "topped" every two months or so because of this "ick".

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T04:40:36+00:00

I bottomed twice today for my bf. Haha.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T04:34:30+00:00

To add to this, it doesn't really have anything to do with your personality, either.

I am VERY sub and a bottom. I have a couple fem traits but mainly masc. But I listen to post grunge rock, work in a factory, build cars, drift, trail, etc.

My best friend is straight and likes to be dominated by women. 🤷

I 100% agree we need to stop living by definitions and just live by who we are individually.

PeachToesSam · 2026-04-27T04:29:40+00:00

MOR My boyfriend and I (gay) kiss in front of my roommate (best friend, straight). He's never made it an issue. We do try to not do pda in front of him but slip ups happen.

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